If only I knew |Nick Nelson|

Chapter Four

|Grace Camron POV|

So my mom has literally been on my ass about my school thing.

I guess we have uniforms which I personally don't like but if every other girl is wearing it so be it.

I looked at myself in the mirror wearing my new uniform I'll be wearing for the rest of my life it feels like...

My grey color Blazer has a shield like symbol with the letters H G G S.

Why they missed the I is beyond me but whatever I thought. I took off the jacket and looked at myself now wearing a white button up with a tie and a skirt as bottoms.

Do I seriously look this fat in person?

I thought to myself.

I'm usually never insecure about myself but recently I've just felt different.

Maybe it's because my ex was kinda a bitch and liked to tell me everything bad about myself I honestly don't know.

Speaking of ex

My phone chimes and I picked it up to see who it was

KAYLA FULLER ❤️
Hey how have you been?

Seriously? I thought to myself.

I need to change her contact name before I even respond to her.

KAYLA 🖕
Hey how have you been?
Did you make it to London okay?

ME
Stop texting me please we're done I told you that last week.

I sighed and put my phone down on my bed.

Kayla was my best friend. We have been together since 6th grade we both came out to each other around the same time and we just so happened to like eachother.

I thought she loved me and I loved her.

Honestly who would've known I would catch her and my cousin Ruby who just so happened to be the only other gay person there, hooking up on the forth of July at my house.

But besides that she was just toxic in general and she made me really hate myself.

I think I finally realized after catching her with my cousin that I can't let her do that to me.

I needed to take control back of myself and how I felt.

I walked out of my bedroom only to see my brother Grant holding up his phone towards the stairs.

"What are you doing?" I asked him seriously confused.

He turned to me and whispered "You'll see.." quickly.

I stood there confused until finally Grant shouted " JOSH come on! Dude!" "SORRY COMING!"

Then a loud thud* thud* thud* came down the stairs.

I jumped back not wanting to get hit by the plastic container my brother stupidly just rolled himself down the stairs in.

"THAT.." Josh paused and stood up and almost fell over but Grant caught him.

" was AWSOME!" Josh screamed with a huge smile on his face.

" and you wonder why you end up in the hospital atleast once a month." I said rolling my eyes.

" hey I'm mom and dads ✨ medically expensive ✨ child and I'm taking advantage while I can okay." Josh said trying to prove a point.

My dad came running down the stairs quickly looking concerned.

"I Hurd a bang from the garage are you guys okay?!" Dad yelled.

" Josh and Grant are just being dumbasses-"

" language young lady." Dad cut me off.

"Hey I'm not hurt that's what matters right??" Josh said looking guilty as ever.

My dad put his face in his hands for a moment then sighed and looked up and all of us.

" don't... do that again and please... try not to kill yourselfs!" Dad yelled.

" I'll try my best" Josh mumbled.

" oh before I leave, you're mother told me to let you guys know you're first day of school's tomorrow." Dad said.

Me ,Grant, and Josh all sighed out loud.

" the uniforms are itchy!" Josh yelled.

" that's not my problem wash it" dad said.

Grant and me couldn't help but laugh at Josh pouting.

" I don't even know how to start the washer!" Josh yelled.

" you're joking." Grant said.

"You do??" Josh said confused.

" mom doesn't do our laundry like a baby dumbass." I told him.

" help me." My dad said looking up at the ceiling.

" hey she just does it! But seriously can you do it?" I laughed at Josh and followed dad upstairs.

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" are you ready for school tomorrow?" Mom asked me.

We are all currently sitting at the dinner table eating pizza because non of us wanted to cook tonight.

" no.... My uniform looks stupid and I'm super nervous." I said looking down at my plate.

" if it makes you feel better G you're brothers will be right there with you." Dad said taking a bite of pizza.

" I still don't understand why they combined schools but it's whatever I guess." Grant said.

While everyone else got caught up in conversation I looked down at my phone.

KAYLA 🖕
I don't know how many times I have to apologize Grace, I love you and what happened between me and ruby ment nothing to me.

I don't even have the energy to respond.

After reading Kayla's message I lost my appetite so I told my parents I was just going to go to bed.

I popped my AirPods in and turned on illicit Affairs by Taylor Swift and stared at the moon out my window.

I just wish I could meet someone who is actually genuine.

I'll be okay though because I'm not going to let Kayla or anyone else get to me....... Hopefully.