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It's 7am when my alarm goes off. I groan and get out of bed. I like to wake up early to have time to mentally prepare myself to go to work. I'm an architecture major, and I'm doing an internship. I was supposed to be happy, this was supposed to be my dream job. But, the stress during my university years and, much to my dismay, a nasty break up, and now the worst workspace you could have asked for, made me hate the degree. So for that I dread my future. I don't know what I will do when the clock hits 6pm and I'm done with this shit hole. But one thing I'm sure of, I will put myself first. I'm done taking care of everyone and putting myself last. I'm tired of having to take my depression pills, I just want to be me again. And that's what 2023 will be for.
I put my fine line vinyl playing and start doing my morning routine. As 'Fine Line' finishes I'm ready to face the long day ahead.
It's 6pm on a Friday, and man to tell you I'm happy that the day is over is an understatement.
Just as I enter my house, my phone vibrates with an incoming group call from my sister and cousins. We are a hell of a group.
I pick up and my sister immediately says "get ready we're having drinks, you're finally free" that brings a smile to my face and I say "Give me five minutes, meet up at the bar downtown?!" They all cheer and the call ends.
I put on a killer outfit and bolt out of the house, this is exactly what I needed. If they didn't call I would probably cry while watching a shitty TV show.
When I enter the bar they are already at a table. As I approach they pass me a shot and say 'to freedom' i click my shot glass with theirs and say "cheers".
As the night go by they say "we have a surprise for you" I make a weird face and say "you know that I hate surprises", my sister laughs and says "you're gonna love this one, we been arranging this for quite long time, so you can't say no", on of my cousins adds "Since this last few years been very difficult to you, and you been talking about taking a gap year or something to focus on yourself, and as you already know you have our full support, we decide to buy you tickets to the last shows of Harry Styles love on tour"
I'm speechless and then start crying and thanking them "We know how much is music helped you, so we thought that this was a good think", "thank you so much, I love you all" my sister laughs and says "there's a suitcase in my car that we packed for you, full of new outfits" my other cousin says "oh, and by the way you leave tomorrow for Brazil" I look at them in disbelief "you're joking, right?!" "No, have fun".
As I'm getting into bed that night I have a smile on my face, something that doesn't happen for a long time. This is exactly what I needed, a solo healing trip. I can't wait to meet new people. I can't wait to find myself again.
"Brazil here I come" I say as I laugh.
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