Girl In The Crowd

Chapter 19 | T h e L a s t S h o w

I'm not ready for the final show.

I'm not ready for the tour to end.

It's the day of the last show.

I'm in my hotel room alone.

I'm so thankful for this tour and for my fans.

And deep down I NEED to stop for a while, but that doesn't make it any easier to say goodbye.

"Styles, 5 minutes," one of the crew members tells me, I nod and take a deep breath.

The band gathers around with me for the final speech.

"Tonight I want you to let go. This is not just an ending for me. After today you're all gonna do your things. And I want this show to be the start of that, not just the end of this! This tour was amazing and it wouldn't be the same without all of you. The show must go on!"

And they run to the stage.

I enter the stage at the sound of 'Daydreaming', like every night.

The setlist suffered some changes. I wanted the last show to be a reap of the tour.

So right now I'm about to sing 'Fallin'. And the reaction makes me happy that I chose it.

But the best addiction was the 'best song ever'. I decided to sing it at that moment and man I should have rehearsal!

And then it was time to thank everyone and I promised myself that I wouldn't cry. But...

"I will remember this evening and all of this for the rest of my life. Thank you for letting me be a part of this. Thank you for dedicating your time to me. Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for being amazing. Thank you for everything."

"I have people here tonight who have supported me in so many ways over the past 13 years in which you can only imagine. I would not be on this stage without them and their love and support."

"My family is here tonight. My friends are here tonight. Thank you to my family! I was doing so well!" I teary laugh "Thank you for the support. Thank you for loving me the way that you have." I say as I look at my mom.

"My friends are here tonight. Thank you for having my back! ALWAYS. I love you all so much. THANK YOU! I have a lot of things to feel incredibly lucky for in my life but I feel the luckiest with my friends' support. It allows me to do this. I'm so full right now. I've NEVER been HAPPIER in my entire life."

"Secondly," I say as I face my band "To you all. Thank you so much for doing this with me. That you trust me. Thank you for giving your time, your energy. This show is what it is because of everything you've done every night."

Now facing the crowd I say

"The last 2 years of my life. The last 2 years of this tour has been the greatest experience I could ever ask for. It has been an honor playing for the most WONDERFUL. EMOTIONALLY GENEROUS. GROUP OF PEOPLE. The future that I see standing before me. I don't get to do this if you guys don't come. Thank you for being here tonight. I know you want to make it special for me every night. Whatever this feeling is that you feel in the crowd tonight. I FEEL IT. What you create together. It is the MOST INSPIRING THING I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE. the ATMOSPHERE that you created. the family that you created. THE SAFE SPACE THAT YOU CREATED" I take a deep breath

"Thank you for everything. I know Feeling so incredibly small In this world can be really difficult sometimes but you can do anything. I see all the time the little things you do. The way you treat each other in the crowd. I see it - the LOVE- in how it's affected all the people around me, and continues to affect people. It does NOT end with this tour. It doesn't end when this tour ends. Put some love into the world. It really needs it right now. I love you and I will miss you. You not only changed my life, you have made me the happiest. I'm so thrilled. I'm so happy. There are a lot of emotions tonight. It's been a long time and I just wanna thank you very seriously for what this has been to me. You've changed my life."

"None of you are alone. Look around. Look at how many people are here. WE'RE ALL THE SAME. I love you. Thank you so, so much." and the intro of 'as it was' starts to play.

I also wrote a ballad to express my gratitude for them. And when I hear the fireworks I know that I have to leave. Even though I don't want to!

I look like I never talked to a girl. I'm so nervous for tomorrow!

Authors note:   

I cried writing the final speech!