Toxic Fantasy | König

Four

König's Perspective

These past few days it has been hard to say no Hannah. It may be mainly out of pity or my desperate need to see her happy, but I just could not bring myself to ruin the little moments of happiness she gets. It is surprising how sympathetic this girl makes me because that is typically not an emotion I experience often, but if one person deserves sympathy, it is Hannah Briggs.

She had a rough start to the week. She made her parents an immaculate dinner Tuesday night, and I know it was immaculate because she made me a plate. This is one of the few times I saw them all sitting together having a meal, but the entire time her parents droned on about how proud they are of her brother. I could tell is was bothering Hannah. She barely touched the food that night and never looked up from her plate. When I was retreating back to my room for the night, I heard her crying in her room.

It is hard to listen to the girl I have fallen in love with cry by herself. She was alone. No promise of comfort or love for her. If only she knew that she is loved, that I love her.

Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do about that. I am the bodyguard and the line between duty and desire cannot be crossed. Besides, she would never feel the same about me. I come off brutish around her. I am a giant of a human and we could never have any semblance of normalcy if she wanted to be with me. People would stare at this small twenty three year old and then see the giant 6'10" thirty six year old looming by her side. Her life is hard enough and having a giant who is terrified to show his face would only make it harder.

Since I cannot be there for her and love her how she should be loved, I have been more lenient with her. I let her stay at the club when she snuck out of the house. I stood in the corner and watched her dance and drink with some of her friends. She looked radiant that night.

She looked happy, genuinely happy. I couldn't bring myself to take that from her, so I let her stay until one in the morning. The time went by so quickly because I was so captivated by her glowing smile and the way her body moved to the music. The way her hips would seductively roll to the rhythm of the music made the dirtiest of thoughts come to my mind.

I wondered what it would feel like to have her straddling my lap while she moved her hips like that. I wondered what expression she would have on her face when she first felt me slide inside of her. I bet she would bite her plump juicy bottom lip and smile as I ease into her.

My erection was straining against my pants and twitching relentlessly. I could feel precum soaking my boxers as I watched her dance. I had to keep reminding myself that I was working and her safety was my top priority. I could not let desire cloud my duty to her.

I could tell Hannah was very appreciative for me letting her stay out, but I had other motives for keeping her out partying. I knew the next day she would be hungover and I wouldn't have to be chasing her around the DMV (DC, Maryland, Virginia) area if she was hungover. I do not get days off, so this was my way of trying to get a chill day where I can just sit around, and luckily for me, it worked.

Our day was actually going really well. I enjoyed just sitting around with her and found myself pretty enthralled with what she was watching. I pretended to read for a little bit, but I couldn't help but focus all my attention on this interesting family on the television. These two sisters were fighting over a handbag and it was pretty ridiculous, but funny.

Hannah caught me laughing at the argument and we started talking, like actually talking. She wasn't being sarcastic with me trying to upset me, she was smiling and joking with me. I could feel my heart hammering against my chest the entire time she was looking at me and speaking.