Omegaverse Series: Faint Hearts

Chapter Nine

Now because of what Zachiry had done, now I am back grinding for our business. It's been a week of full on work trying to make things right. All I can say is that Zachiry almost did not do anything except of causing harm to our business. 

There is a drama going on our house right now. Zachiry was kicked out of the house and is troubled to be out of the inheritance, which I don't wanna be part of. Speaking of those things just sets me off and I will be easily anger by those talks.

"Sir, I got all the documents encoded and revised. I would like you to check before we send these to the H.R."  Camille said as she enter my office with a bunch of papers almost covering her small face. 

I look at her with my really exhausted face. I haven't sleep a wink within  a week, but if you count having a shut eye for 30 minutes a sleep, then maybe we are all fucked. 

I massage my nose bridge as I feel a pressure coming out of it as if I will have a nosebleed. I gestured my hand to put it at the table near the couch since my office table is looking kinda busy at the moment.

With hesitance Camille put them slowly. She look at me worried which I appreciate. I think it's time for her to go since I notice the orange and pink skies. I look at her and smile.

I nodded and gestured the door politely. "Thank you Camille, you can go. Your son is waiting for you."

She staggered a little before going out kasi tumingin pa siya saakin, I just gave her a smile assuring I am okay.

As she got out and heard the elevator door open and shut I got my personal phone out of my pocket and stared at it a little. There is someone that I am waiting to message but I really am not hoping for his name pop off. You really expect him to go after you, after you left without saying a thing?  I gaslighted myself in order to lower or just shut down any possible expectations. 

I sighed and look at the mountain of workload. Bigla kong naramdaman ang paghahapdi ng aking kalamnan, doon ko napagtanto na hindi pa pala ako kumakain. I only had a club sandwich for breakfast. I decided to get up and wanted to go to the pantry at the other side of this floor. I don't wanna order cause I'm kind of craving for unhealthy food.

I was already out of my office and pass by the elevator when it opened and a guard came looking for me.

"Sir Rogue, A delivery came named for you daw po." I almost salivate to the aroma coming from the paper bag he was holding, but I hold myself from ripping that bag right there, and ask. "From who?" I ask.

He just shrug and read a small paper note. "Dapitan Boy." He said. That made my heart thump. How?

How did he know? Is he here? "Pero isang grab delivery boy po yung naghatid, sabi niya pinahatid lang po." He added as he exited the floor.

That got me excited and hopes up. This is not good. H'wag mo akong paasahin. I whispered to myself as I held and stared at the paper bag with a bunch of food.

I walk slowly as I held tightly to this paper bag of food in my arms. Why does he always have a perfect timing? As I enter my office, my heart started throbbing really fast. I don't like this feeling...This familiar tingling sensation in my stomach is clearly not because I was hungry but rather a very dangerous sensation that could lead me to despair at any given moment.

I beg please not to fall again, I know I said I want too, but not him. He is link to my past which I escaped from. 

Masaya naman ako mag isa. Kinaya ko naman mag isa diba? For several years that I was alone, I never felt lonely, didn't I? So why do I feel that I need him now?

I crouch down as I put the food on the floor and a tear drop from my eyes to my cheeks. Maybe I'm just exhausted. This is what I get for not sleeping properly. I pick the food and also myself. I don't have time for these. I need to focus on this mess that my brother had made.

I put the food in my table, said my thanks beneath my breathe and dig in.

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It was sunrise till I recognize that I hadn't slept again, but it was okay at least I was  almost done with the crucial documents that was left and been ignore for almost a month, yes, Zachiry did not do shit since I was gone.

It pisses me off, another reason not to take a break from working, taking a break was a curse for me. I don't need another shit to happen to me.

A knock from my door suddenly stop me from clicking through my mouse and look at the door, a head pop up and a familiar person gave me an unsure smile, it was my sister. "Hi..." She greeted.

I smiled back to her, "Hello, what made you visit?" I asked. She invited herself in and slowly walk towards me while looking around the mess that was all over the floor and table.

Everywhere you look, it seems that every corner of my office is occupied of documents, paper and boxes I don't quiet know why it is there. I was an utter chaos.

She look at me worried, "Uhmm Mom sent me to check up on you, Sindya kong maging maaga kasi di rin ako makatulog kakaisip if you've been eating well..." She paused and look at the small garbage bin, where the food I ate was dump after I was done with it. "...I guess you are."

She grabbed a chair and sit across me, she poised herself and look at me directly at the eye.

"Kuya, I don't know if you'll like this but, I need you to continue your break--" I cut her off my putting my palm near her face in mid air. "I need to fix this Zasha, I don't need a break now..."

she stands forcefully causing the chair to fall, "Kuya listen to me, I know you care for this family, but you are making me feel useless and I don't like it. I can run this business for a while, Mom and Dad are still able, and I'm fucking worried about you, working to death? Is this your life goal? and if is, this is bulshit." She shouted.

It's too early for these. "Is this the reason you came? to gaslight me?" Her expression softened and walk to my side and hug me from the back. "Kuya, please, I love you so much, and I don't want you to waste your life working, you have proven your worth, you've proven so much. I think it's time for you to live your life a little bit colorful than sit here and stress over these papers. I have a degree and I understand most of this naman, please, trust me."

I did not say anything and just felt that moment there, I am tired physically and emotionally at the moment. This kind of minor moments stresses me out, I just wanna go back to my monogamous routine everyday.

I patted her hand and breathed loudly as I firmly said "I'm staying here Zasha, thank you, but I have my decision and it's to just stay here."

...and maybe this is for the best.

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