Fight To Love You Freen&Becky

It will be painful, if you won't relax

ATTENTION: Adult and sensitive content

I couldn't sleep the whole night, I was reading everything that was in the room, I watched people in groups, coming and going during the day, but it was killing silence during the night.

I couldn't understand where I was. I think I am in prison. There was literally a book of rules. Like real illogical and strict rules, that even in prisons they don't have this much rules. There were 150 points of rules, all of them, like...

YOU CAN'T

YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO

YOU SHOULD NOT

IT IS FORBIDDEN

YOU WILL BE PUNISHED IF....

I can't even read these rules a second time, how am i going to memorise all this shit.

I just wish i was in prison with Freen, ohh i really do wish i was with her and it doesn't matter where we would be, i just want to be with her, the last and one and only thing i want in this life....

But still i was in here, all alone and so empty, that i was really sitting all night on the bed, thinking nothing, it was emptiness in me. I lost everything, i lost Freen, i lost my family, and now, i'm losing myself.

But i couldn't lose myself even physically so i needed to find a way out of here. But there was nothing in the readings, all what I could find was just a normal school materials and then not very clear map, in what I could find approximate locations of some rooms and empty places, on the map, like it was lakes in the middel of the building or garden or in area in general.

I couldn't understand anything from the stupid schedule either. It was made to confuse even more, like
Check- ex. room 1- 5 6.00- 8-00 am
Breakfast 8.15- 8. 45 am
School classes- room x 9.00- 15.00
Lunch 15.00- 15.30
Classes- room y 15.35- 17.00
Therapy- room z 17.00- 18.00
Dinner 18.00- 18.45
Cleaning 18.45- 19.45
Classes- room k 19.45- 20. 45
Therapy- room t 20.45- 21.45
Getting ready to sleep 21.45- 22.00
Lights off 22.00

What kind of closed school is this, when am I supposed to have rest? Or why are the breaks so short. This is definitely not a school or some kind of long school, this is a place where people are getting punished, but for what? NO. NO. I tried to shut down the answer for that question in my head. That can't be true. My pa... who am i lying.

I couldn't sleep, I was sitting on the bed, still in my clothes and didn't notice how I fell asleep.
I woke up with a cold splash of water to my face.

- WHAT THE FUCK- I tried to get up, but someone pushed me back on the bed.

- I have told you to read all the rules and DO NOT DO ANYTHING AGAINST THE RULES. Was that so hard to do?- that was the woman from yesterday.

- Let me go,- two men were holding me from my arms.

- YOU LISTEN TO ME VERY CAREFULLY, this is not a place where you can show off your strong character, this is a place where we are going to break your character and you too and then rebuild you, fix you as a normal, as a right human being,- what is she saying, this can't be true, I wanted to cry and scream for help, but I knew for sure there was no one to come to help me. Just silent tears were running down on my face.

- Don't cry, we are doing this only for you, yourself. For your better future and so you can have a real life,- she came closer and capped my cheek,- I'm going to be kind to you this time and gonna let you go without punishment, but,- she started tapping on my cheek, with each tap harder,- if this will happen again, I can't do anything to help you. And believe me, you won't like our punishment methods.