Snowflake Method (Kareena Version)

Chapter 14

I am not a bad person.

At least I dont think I am, though I have certainly done many bad things.

I have cheated on multiple tests in school, its a minor offense but it's still bad.

When I was a child I wanted both a bag and a car set but Ammi said I could only get one so I put the car set in the bag to get both. This was before what happened, of course.

And clearly, there was that whole cheating on my husband for three years thing.

So that does make me a liar, a thief, and an adulterer.

By any definition that makes me a bad person, but if we all counted all our sins wouldnt we all be considered bad people?

I dont think there are any bad people though, I just think there are good people that get stuck in bad situations.

No one is born a bad person.

Its all about perspective I think. For example: A woman who falls in love with someone she knows she cant have but defies all odds to be with her.

My perspective.

A man whos trying to piece together the shattered pieces of his marriage with his unfaithful wife while cheating on her as well

Jays perspective

And a young naive college freshman who fell in love with a married woman who at any moment can break her heart.

Karishmas perspective.

From an outsider's perspective, they could have easily made me out to be a woman who took advantage of her position of power to seduce her student. And though that is not even close to my own version of the story whos to say its any less true?

There are so many different ways to view the same situation and how bad it is only depends on how you perceive it.

So this kiss between Karishma and Kashish, I am trying so hard to perceive in a way that doesnt destroy us.

Karishma is forgiven and I am honestly not even angry with Kashish, but I cant help the sinking feeling in my stomach when I think about it.

And boy have I tried to stop thinking about it.

But its like every time I close my eyes I see Karishmas lips against Kashishs.

Perception, I think

Kashishs lips against Karishmas.

I try to make myself think it may not be as bad if Kashish had started it.

Perception

Karishma stopping the kiss

The idea makes me cringe

Perception

Karishma disliking the kiss

Did she really dislike it though?

There was no way of knowing and I certainly was not going to ask her, not for lack of curiosity, but because Im not sure I want the answer to it.

There are so many, too many ways to perceive this situation and at the end of the day, I just wish it hadnt happened.

Everything just got so out of control.

So, I really hope Karishma doesnt perceive what I am about to do incorrectly because truly, Im doing it with the best intentions.

I press the phone tightly against my ear allowing it to ring a few times before I hear a familiar voice on the line