Broken ||A Sodapop Curtis Love Story||

Chapter 13

Emily's POV:

"Emily, calm down. Tell me what's wrong. I won't be mad, I promise," Soda whispers soothingly, rubbing my back. I want to tell him, I really do. I want to have a clean conscience, an good, trusting relationship, but I just can't seem to form the words. Instead, I just break down in sobs. I just about fall apart right there and Soda has to hold me up. I cry and cry into his shoulder until I have a headache.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," I keep whispering, but he doesn't even respond. He just comforts me, like he doesn't even care what I did, he just cares about me. That makes me feel worse. So much worse.

"I love you, Soda," I whisper, finally catching my breath.

"I know," He says, kissing my cheek. I try to wipe my tears away, but even as I do, more just keep spilling out. He try's to calm me down, tell me that it's ok, but I know that it's not. Nothing will ever make up for the fact that I cheated on the only person to ever unconditionally love me.... While he was in combat. Could I be any worse of a person?

"Wanna tell me what's going on now?" He asks once I'm done crying. I nod.

"Soda, I've been getting bullied for a while now. You know that," I start. He nods, and his eyes flare angrily as if to say "I'll kill them all".

"Well, that's been getting me down. A lot.... And after you left, I was.... depressed. And I didn't know what to do. And then I was talking to Steve and I started to see that maybe he actually did care about me. I was vulnerable, and upset. And then things happened... And we kissed," I say quickly. I spoke super fast, so fast that he could probably barely understand me... until the end. I immediately feel a weight lifting off my chest. I can finally breathe.

"R-really?" He asks. I nod. There's that weight again. Especially since I didn't tell him everything. About how Steve wanted to go all the way, and never mention anything to Soda.

"It was my fault, my idea, my everything. I could have stopped it but I didn't. I'm a horrible person. If I were you I would just break up with me now. You probably hate me anyways," I say. Honestly, Sodapop and Two-Bit are the reasons I'm even still here. Here as in alive. I don't know what I would do without either of them. But I care about Soda, too and I would rather have Soda keep a lifelong friendship then stay with me. Even if it was Steve's fault, that's why I took the blame.

I wait for a response from Soda, but it doesn't come.

"Yeah... That's what I thought. Thank you for coming to visit me. You can go now.... If you want," I tell him. He stares at me, again speechless. But he doesn't move.

"Soda?" I ask. I can't read the expression on his face, somewhere between hurt, angry, confused, and just plain sad.

"So that's really what happened?" He asks me. Finally.

"Yeah... That's it," I say. It's not lying exactly... More of a not telling everything.

"I don't believe it. I wanna hear what happened from Steve," He responds. I gasp.

"You don't believe me?" He shakes his head.

"Emily, I know you. I know that you would never do something like that. Maybe Steve would, but you.... You love me. Right?" That's when his eyes start to tear up, and it takes everything not to myself.

"I'm sorry, Soda. I really am. But I can't take it back, as much as I wish I could." It's hard to breathe, like my throat is closing, and the air seems to get thicker and thicker, the more upset he gets.

"Yeah.... But you can't," He whispers. He gets up off he bed, looking the saddest I've ever seen him. The saddest I've ever seen Sodapop Curtis, the one who lost both of his parents in the same day, the one who lost two of his closest friends and almost his brother, the one who could love a person so much and yet they still cheat on him. And I was the second person that did that to him.

I remember Soda coming to my house after Sandy told him that she cheated. I remember talking him through it, telling him that it was ok, he deserved better, and that she wasn't worth it. But looking back, I'm no better. Maybe I didn't get pregnant like her, but I still cheated. I still broke his trust.

I always expected to end up with my Soda. I always, always, always thought that I would be the one there for him in the end, but obviously that isn't the case. I watch the love of my life walk out of my room in the middle of the night, utterly heartbroken, and I realize that I have never felt worse in my 15 years on this Earth.

A/N: Surprise! I bet you didn't expect this. I got a pedicure earlier and was bored so I decided to write. And 855 words! Better than yesterday. :) Anyways, here's another chapter. Originally I planned on ending it here, but then I came up with a few more ideas, so I'll probably end it at either 15 or 20 chapters.

So, do you want Soda and Emily to end up together? Because what you guys want could affect what my ending idea is.....