Olivia | Friends with benefits

ch.13

Olivia: iris she's on her way oh my god... oh god of my god i'm going to panic dude and say everything wrong i'm going to blank! everything i've been rehearsing in my head i swear is gonna go poof! when she's standing in front of me god... uhhhh maybe it's cuz she's hot im gonna loose my train of thought or that i just am crushing hardcore one or the other or anything really. what if she doesn't like me back i'd be- ugh i'd truly wanna kill my self but she's slept with me... so obviously she finds me attractive already right-
Iris: olivia! just.... shut up
olivia: sorry i'm rambling
iris: you really are. and ofc she'll like you your hot olivia and she already had sex with you so your already at third base!
olivia: so funny-
iris: thanks i appreciate the recognition for once

Olivia rolled her eyes as iris was obviously being sarcastic

olivia: ok i need to calm down and just speak to her... ugh you-! you need to leave iris
Iris: yup right.... ill go to tates down a few stories
olivia: k perfect
iris: alright just don't panic clam down deep breaths before you speak and please don't don't don't do that thing where you stumble over your words cuz you talk wayyyy too fast just... slow down
olivia: sounds... so easy iris
iris: hey... you got it love u bye
Olivia: yup bye have fun with tate....

iris left olivia alone in their apartment as olivia paced around unsteady for 20 minutes until there was a faint knock on her door. her heart dropped as her breathing hitched, she took a deep breath as she walked to her front door wiping her sweaty palms on her jeans before she opened the door. revealing the light brunette standing there giving a weak smile as the singer did the same.

olivia: hi
jordyn: hi liv
olivia: come in come in
jordyn: thanks

olivia opened the door wider as jordyn walked in hesitantly looking around, analyzing all the decor and the space

jordyn: nice place
olivia: thanks i actually live here with my friend iris
jordyn; oh nice

tension felt thick in the room

olivia; can i get you water or something
jordyn: umm sure yeah thankyou

olivia grabbed a water bottle for jordyn handing it to her as they locked eyes for second before jordyn broke eye contact

jordyn: so... you wanted to ummm talk
olivia: yeah yeah right

jordyn took a sip of her water and waiting olivia to start the conversation

olivia: i umm so basically i just i wanted to bring up this
*olivia pointed between them back forth from herself to jordyn, jordyn immediately understood nodding her head yes *

jordyn: yeah... what umm what abt it
olivia: im really sorry i never replied to your texts a while ago that was a shity move
jordyn: it's alright.... you don't owe me any explanations i get it
Olivia: well i actually umm so i didn't answer you because i was scared jordyn
jordyn: of me?...
Olivia: no no not you well not exactly
jordyn; then of what... ?

jordyn looked her intently

olivia: i was scared because i- well.... we were friends with benefits no strings attached and i was scared you would hate me if u knew the truth
jordyn: why would i hate you liv
olivia: because jordyn-  i..... i started to have feelings for you jordyn, i started to care.... more than i should've actually a lot more than i should've so i was scared you'd hate me or be mad at me or not even feel the same way

jordyn kinda was speechless

olivia: look i know it's stupid i asked you to come here so i could say all that but i just wanted you to know the real reason i never answered but i was scared you'd hate me for catching feelings i wasnt supposed to catch but i like you..... and that honestly kind of scares the shit out of me because your gorgeous and you probably don't want even want me back butYouWent BackToYouexAndIDidntKnowWhatToDoCuz
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jordyn: olivia olivia olivia slow down
Olivia: sorry i know i talk to fast when im nervous
jordyn; it's ok.... its ummm it's cute

olivia smiled

Jordyn: can i be honest
Olivia: yeah of course
Jordyn: i umm ofc i started this without the right intentions...but as we ya know as we got to know each other, started to talk for hours and just get to know eachother i started to romanticize the idea of us and that scared me.... a lot yeah it scared me.... i guess we had that in common. but umm idk ig it just kinda hurt when you never answered and i don't want you to think i just ran back to my ex.. it looks like that to everyone in the world but there's ya know- there's a lot of ummm deeper issues there, it's a touchy topic and not that it's the point at all or an excuse but i just.... when i was with him it all just felt wrong, everything felt wrong and i couldn't get myself to know why the first couple of days until i realized why.... it was something i tried to deny i guess for the same reason you were scared to text me back. i was never supposed to catch feelings for you olivia and i did and that's why it hurt when you ghosted me that's why i cared so much.... all because i realized i wanted you

olivia was internally freaking out

Olivia: want-ed?

jordyn: olivia... *jordyn smiles* i wanted you then and i still want you now

olivia nodded staring at her feet as she smiled widely and jordyn smiled at the reaction. jordyn made olivia blush and jordyn walked up to the olivia caressing her face gently making them hold eye contact as olivia's stomach rushed with butterflies. jordyn smiled as well as olivia before she knew it jordyn connected their lips so softly. they went back and forth for a few minutes until olivia pulled away

olivia: we're not having sex

jordyn smiled

olivia: im serioussss
jordyn: no i know you are i just idk..
olivia: what jordynnn
jordyn: i wasn't even thinking about that
olivia: oh well i need to be clear we're not doing that whole thing anymore
jordyn: yes mam olivia rodrigo no sex until i put a ring on it got it yes mam

jordyn was being sarcastic

olivia: oh shut up
*pushed jordyn playfully*
olivia: ok my nerves are gone now...
Jordyn: i'm glad
Olivia: would u like to still we can watch amovie or something?
jordyn: wait that's cute u we're nervous for me olivia: umm yeah what if i got rejected
jordyn: good thing u didn't, yeah i'm down to watch movies tho
olivia: ok lets go to my room then