Shawty babes im sorry

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by definatlynotatlas

by definatlynotatlas

Ok so I was kind iff a bastard for leaving for a while but i have ALOT of updates

So for those who don't know me personally shits been hectic in my CR amd im unwell so ill be more active here.

Ok forst and formost a life update:

Im Transgender I now use He/Him pronouns I'm trans FTM
My name is Alex

My main OC's represent me therfore my mc in my fic is going to be a dude so it will be a gay fic (Boy x Boy) from now on

In one of my older fics i used a photo of my 13/14 year old year old self as a fancast so i will be replacing it with no fc at the moment or I'll wait until i can find a black boy that suits my character.

TW: SH, Drugs, Depressed & Mentions of mental illness (pls be respectful)

Ok so I've also not been doing well mentally. And since may/June of 2020 I've been SH badly on and off and I've been invalidating it i guess due to how much toxic/abusive mother would invalidate my struggles too but I was recently talking to somebody who's goijng through certain similar living situations as me I've been able to find comfort and the confidence to talk about this.

Just today I reached out to a youth centre thing in my area and I'm scheduled to meet a psychologist tomorrow

I also have a dependency on alcoholic substances, weed and cigarettes (I obviously don't drink or smoke on a daily bases but I vape and SH a high amount)

I don't really know the point of this except: I've personally needed someone MY WHOLE LIFE and to know that they are other people on their LAST straw joking, crying pleading and just wishing for help hurts.

If you know someone who needs you or anyone for that matter help them.
Children's mental health matter

Teenagers mental health matters

Adults/POC & Queer peoples mental health matters

Its crazy because i have scars on my chest from self-harm and certain people are aware and they do nothing, not that people should fight your battles but sometimes you get tired of fighting your own and you wish for others to help with yours

As compensation I can write a few chapters pertaining my minishift to my ST DR, give motivation, try shift and let you guys know after.

Also I just want to say; I love every single person watching this and I truly wish the best for you, feel free to reach out to me if you ever need to talk or anything

Im also on Ao3

459 words damn

Also my appearance changed sm wtf.