Glass Heart (Shinazugawa Sanemi X Reader)

Chapter 31

Previously on Chapter 30

"I love you too, Sanemi... and thank you" I said. He just smiles at what I said. He slowly leans down and places a soft kiss on my forehead. I try my hardest not to flinch. I keep trying to assure myself that it's okay. This is Sanemi. It's not that Upper Demon. Sanemi would never hurt me. I'm okay... I'm going to be okay.

-It Does Gets Better-

Y/N P.O.V

Sanemi carries me all the way back to my Estate. He didn't even seem to get tired as he held me in his arms. Once we are inside my estate, Sanemi finally lowers me down and he's being gentle while doing so. He stands straight as he keeps me at an arm length, just in case I might fall over again.

"I think I'm going to be fine now, Sanemi..." I said. He hums softly and nod his head. He backs away a little as I take a step. I smile softly when I manage to stay upright. "See? I'm fine..." I said.

"That's a relief" he said, smiling softly at me. I just smile softly at what he said. "Go on and take a shower. So you can change into a much comfortable clothes... while I'll try to make something for you to eat, alright?" He said.

"Okay... thank you, Sanemi" I said, nodding my head. I lean up to place a quick kiss on his cheek. He just blinks in surprise at my sudden action. I can't blame him for his reaction. After all, I'm still not comfortable with having to share any form of kisses after what happened to me.

A soft smile eventually starts to form on his lips after he got over his temporary surprise. He leans down and place a soft kiss on my forehead. I close my eyes as he let his lips linger against my skin.

"Anything for you, my love..." he said, in a soft voice making me smile. I turn around and make my way to my room. I head towards the wardrobe for some clothes to wear after my shower, along with a towel. I head to the bathroom for a quick shower.

A While Later

I gently rub my hair with the towel to dry it as I make my way towards the kitchen. Sanemi have his back facing me as he seem to focus on cooking. I smile softly at the sight of him. He's being so patient with me. He knew how hard things have been for me after what happened to me. Even so, he never show any sign of giving up and stays with me. He took care of me, making me feel safe.

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve him. Here I am... a girl who's been broken, and stripped off of her dignity by the same demon that killed the man she loved. But he still loves me the same. He makes me feel worth it.

"Y/N?" A voice said, snapping me out of my daze. I blink my eyes and lift my head to look at him. He turns off the stove. He turns around, walking over to me. "Do you feel okay?" He asked, as he slowly lift his hand. He cups my cheek tenderly as he starts to caress my skin. He seem to be wiping my tears that I hadn't even realize I've shed. "Are you hurting somewhere?" He asked.

"No..." I mumbled softly. He looks worried as he stares at me. I turn my head away from him. "Doesn't it bothers you?" I asked, in a hushed voice. He stays silent as I turn to look at him with tears brimming my eyes. "Doesn't it bothers you, loving a girl who's no longer pure?" I said. My voice cracks a little as I said those words.

"No..." he said, shaking his head. He lift his hands to cup my cheeks. He leans his forehead against mine, making me close my eyes. "It will never bother me. I love you as a person. I don't fall in love with your body, Y/N. In my eyes... you're the most perfect girl ever" he said.

"Sanemi..." I said. My eyes tears up at what he said. His words warms my heart. He smiles softly at me and gently pulls me into a hug. I place my head against his chest. My ear is place right where his heart is. I feel his hand gently running through my hair.

"I love you, Y/N... no matter what. So please don't ever see yourself that way again, okay?" He said. I just nod my head at what he said. I pull away to look at him. I hesitate for a little before lifting my head up, gently placing a soft kiss against his lips. My heart starts to beat faster. But I try to control it as best I can. I'm not with that demon... I'm with Sanemi.

My heart finally calms down as I feel myself relaxing. I feel a gentle hand cupping the side of my cheek as he deepen the kiss. I wrap my arms around his neck, kissing him tenderly.

"I love you too, Sanemi..." I said, after we pulls away to breathe. He smiles brightly at what I said. He pulls me close into a gentle embrace. He gently run his hand through my hair. I feel my shirt getting soaked, letting me know that Sanemi is crying. "Why are you crying?" I asked.

"I'm happy... that was the first kiss we shared after your return. I'm just so happy that can be yourself again. I have missed you so much, Y/N..." he said. I blink my eyes at what he said. Eventually I start to smile as I tighten my arms around him. "I will protect you better this time... I promise" he said.

I nod my head at what he said. "Yeah, I know you will..." I said, in a soft voice. I pull away slightly to look at him and smiles. He smiles back and slowly leans down to see if I would back away. I smile softly at the way he's still trying to make sure I'm comfortable. "You may kiss me, Sanemi... I'm okay now" I said. A soft smile forms on his face. He leans down, finally closing the gap between us as he kisses me softly.

He pulls away from the kiss, only to place a soft kiss on my forehead. "I'm so happy..." he breathed out. I just smile softly as he leans his forehead against mine. I close my eyes as I try to savor this sweet moments.

It's been hard for me after what happened. But he never gives up and is always there for me. I'm so thankful to have him in my life. I don't know what would become of me if Sanemi isn't with me. I guess with him... it does gets better.

*to be continued*