Loving You, Feels Wrong. (Freen x Becky x Billy)

Chapter 6

The last few days had been so much about putting their routine into place again, trying to navigate what their lives were like without Billy, the nights, their nights were all about Billy. Those were moments they both found themselves really facing their grief.

They’d come to rely on one another for comfort, a shoulder to lean on, to cry on, a hug that felt like the pain wouldn’t be permanent. Of course, the wine helped to lower their guard, to be truthful.

So here they were again, wine glasses in hand, lounging on the living room couch and talking.

Laughing about some memories they shared with Billy. This exercise was becoming something they waited for at the end of the day, looked forward to it, it was the only time the pain felt like it could be bearable.

“I don’t think P'Billy and I ever really fought,” Freen said, trying to recall anything they may have disagreed on.

“Are you kidding me right now, phi? That one time you’ll had a disagreement, and I got to see a whole new side of Billy.”

“Oh wait. The time I didn’t believe him when he told me he found out Seng was cheating on me?” Freen asked, cause she knew that was about the only time they had somewhat of an argument and didn’t talk for a good 24 hours.

She was dating Seng Wichai for a year. Even after she told him to fuck off in high school, she decided to gave him a chance. This was the year Billy and Becky had just moved in together.

Becky nodded, “He came home that day, slamming the door behind him, and when I asked him what’s wrong he didn’t respond, but he rushed up the stairs and went straight to the bedroom. So I followed him up.”

“And?” Freen asked, realizing that she never really knew about Billy's side of things on this day.

“And I found him pacing in the room, just walking back and forth, his hands folded across his chest, breathing in anger. I tried approaching him and asking him what’s wrong, but he wouldn’t have any of it, he just told me to leave him alone and I honestly found that quite strange. He never pushed me away no matter what was on his mind.”

“Well, if it’s any consolation, I was in the same mood that day.” Freen said, remembering the day like it was yesterday.

**Flashback**

“Babe ka, you’ve been pacing for the last 5 minutes, can you please talk to me and tell me what happened? Did you tell P'Freen?” Becky asked.

Billy finally stopped pacing and looked at Becky, his eyes were red and Becky couldn’t tell if it was from anger or sadness.

“Yes Becky. I just told our best friend that she’s being cheated on, that the person she’s so madly in love with is seeing someone else behind her back. And you know what? She didn’t believe me.”

“Oh babe..”

“I just want to be alone right now baby, please kub,”

“Billy, I think it’ll be better if you talk it out with me.”

“BECKY. Do you know what that feels like? Our best friend thinks I'm making this up, when all I’m trying to do is protect her. She's like my sister, Becky. She’s willing to fight me over it. It's us who’s known her for so long, all for this worthless asshole who she’s known for just a year, who doesn’t even respect her the way she deserves!”

“No, Billy, I don’t know what that feels like, but I know you’re hurt.”

“I’ll be okay. I just want to talk to Freen. Make her understand.”