𝐌𝐲 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐎𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐧(𝟏𝟖+) : 𝐉𝐉𝐊 𝐅𝐅

Chapter 36 - Home

A week later

YN POV

To be honest, I'm living a happiest life with him but at the same time I'm living with a pain of not being able to confess or express myself and my feelings to him because I'm really afraid of getting rejected, I can't handle this rejection because I'm so into him.

But at certain times, I did feel that he considers me more than just a fuckmate, I mean he considers me as if I'm a part of his heart, but our mind can play tricks with us, so I'm not going to think about this matter much.

There have been many crusts and troughs in our untitled relationship but that only led me getting closer to him day by day and falling deep for him. He hasn't opened up to me about his past, but I do know that he had been into one night stands because definitely, he's a mafia, young, wild and free, but past is past. If he's ready to forget all about his past, not getting clinged on it and discontinuing what he did during those days, I'm happy to accept him.

We all have made mistakes in the past as how I had with Alexis, but if we have the guts to move on from it and start new and fresh then that's the moment a person succeed in his life with the best things.

I really do think that he needed space and time to open up with me because I still have many unanswered questions in my mind, his relationship with my Oppa is something which makes me think too much. I know my oppa is a mafia and they can be allies, but I think it's something more than just business things or mafia things, I think it's quite personal among them and he always said he is obliged to him, but in what way? both haven't confessed to me till now.

Anyways he promised that he will say the truth soon and I'm waiting for that moment. I'm not going to push him to say what he's hiding from me, when the perfect time comes, he will say it by himself. It can break my heart or else it can make me angry but I want to listen to their sides.

It's almost evening and Now, I'm sitting on the comfy couch in a comfortable position while looking at the lawn from the living room. Its an off-day for me and I spent the entire day in this mansion without him. Many beautiful memories that I spent with him crossed my mind which indeed is one of the most beautiful chapter of my life.

He added colours to my life. He became someone I never knew I needed. I didn't knew I was smiling all the time, but things are not so good and anything can happen soon and I have been living with this fear. I badly wanted to hear the screeching of his tyres so that I can spend some quality time with him at the end of the day. I was so bored that I decided to cook today's dinner on my own, without any help from ajhumma.

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YN - ajhumma, you can go home early today. I'll manage the dinner.

Ajhumma - you need any help in cutting vegetables or washing?

YN - no no ajhumma.. I can manage.

I smiled at her which she too returned. Usually on Saturdays, she would cut the veggies and keep it in the fridge so that we can cook our dinner or meals on Sundays. But today I persuaded her to go, still ajhumma chopped all those veggies for our Sunday meal.

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The kitchen counter was so clean and shiny now. I thought of making pasta which I'm a fan of. I can eat pasta all day without getting bored of it, it's one among my comfort food that makes my day and my stomach happy.

So today I'm gonna make a recipe which is close to me as it's my eomma's recipe. Me and oppa both used to lick the leftover sauce on the plate during our childhood days because it will be a sin to wash off the most tastiest pasta sauce.