𝐌𝐲 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐎𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐧(𝟏𝟖+) : '𝐇𝐢𝐬' 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝟐

Chapter 44 - Missing

YN Pov

I would like to describe how I feel these days, it's like I'm lost in a desert where I feel completely helpless and useless, the scorching sun burning my skin to hell and the thing which added days to my life was the cold blood that run through my veins giving me a temporary chillness in this unbearable heat as I calmed down a bit.
And these temporary chillness were the memories we spent together and the scorching sun was the pain of our separation which I had to live for my entire life.

It's been 3 months that we got separated and trust me, it feels hell. There were days when I cried a lot, especially the day when we marked our 1 year of relationship or say togetherness, actually I don't know what to call it, an anniversary maybe? It's complicated, but I miss him a lot these days.

Sometimes I was even so delusional that I imagined that he's on his way and we will have the dinner together, it's just that my mind was trying to play tricks with me whenever I reminisced him. I always think what he might be doing at a particular hour and I try to get some possible answers within my head itself as I don't have the guts to call him and listen to his voice but my heart wants the opposite.

It's been around 100 days without him, without listening to his voice and it's so agonizing to a person like me.
These days, I started going for the night duties too which made my friend Kang Nari doubt me a lot. She started shooting questions like daggers which I tried to escape somehow but ended up saying the truth. I told her how I was addicted and completely devoted to him and she could do nothing other than uttering, 'this too shall pass'.

I don't know what she meant by that, but it was enough for me to spread the positivity to my heart. My work place was still as busy as how it was earlier, mingling with colleagues, treating my patients, surgeries, rounds, night duties etc etc and I was busy in my own world to escape from the wrecking reality. But the thing that made me happy was his second name which was still in front of my first name, Dr. Jeon YN, that literally gave me a strength that I was still his woman and no one can have any right over me other than him.

Even though we are kilometres away, still our hearts were connected and I could feel what he might be going through. I even wished if we crossed paths accidentally so that I could see him again and chat for some time.

Also, in these 11 months, it's not like we never took a photo or selfie, we snapped some memories and I always used to look at those pictures which I took and had a smile on my face seeing his expression. Jungkook was never a selfie person and wasn't much interested in taking selfies, but I always forced him to look at the camera screen and smile for me when I say 'cheese', he would always do that but his face says the opposite.

Almost in our every selfies, you can find him having a grumpy, grudgy look clearly indicating that he was forced to take a selfie with me and on the other side, I would be smiling at the picture.

Those pics of us were really funny, especially his facial expression which can make me laugh for hours. At times he was so cute, a cute husband material but sometimes he was a perfect daddy material and he slayed both of these roles. Ofc being Jeon Jungkook's wife indeed was a best thing happened to me but it was short lived, and I was lucky enough to get that title even though I hated him and the title initially, anyways I hope he's doing good now.

These days, oppa started to talk to me, it's not like he never did earlier, but he started spending much more time with me making sure if I was okay, guess he's doubting on me and my emotions towards Jungkook, but I always said I was fine, but trust me everything isn't fine as how it seems to be, because once I get immersed into my golden days with him, I would soon drown into the ocean of pain and that lingers inside my unless and until I cry my heart out.