I know I am like the other girls.
My friend says she does not like the way I style,
fitting in this society
means fitting out of yourself.
I would want to break the norms
and the status quo—
is not it amusing?
We live in a mundane world
where there are routines,
people are indifferent
and that is a compliment
Because in real life,
people do not prefer the manic pixie dream girl nor the manic pixie dream boy.
In reality,
no one likes an alien.
Is there any space for me?
Who has always longed to be different?
If I am not passionate enough,
without knowing what I love,
if I'm not different—
who I am?
I have always wanted to know my identity,
have my identity separated from others
because if I am not here writing at 11:44 p.m,
I will be just an ink
without an inkjet.
Still,
I have this dream
that someone will want the depth in me
and be willing to understand it
as much as I do.
That maybe,
someone will love me
because I am different.
I know it is wrong to think that way,
everybody is different in their own unique ways.
But I have just this dream
that someone will see something in me that others can't see;
someone will see my soul as one of a kind
and in that way,
I will finally be found.
I know it is also wrong to think this way
because no one can save me
as much as I can save myself—
but still,
I have this dream.
Maybe I do not even need to be saved,
maybe I just needed to be found
and understood.
They say love has no reason,
but I do not want someone who will love me just because they do;
maybe,
after all
I want someone who will love me because they want to.
Just like I want every air you breathe
and all the veins inside you.
I desire for the beat of your heart,
I choose to crawl into your skin
and suck the marrow out of your bones.
How can this be—
what is this sort of luck?
How can two people fall for each other at exactly the same time in exactly the right way?
Finally,
I found someone
who wants every air I breathe
and all the veins inside me.
He desires for the beat of my heart,
he chose to crawl into my skin
and suck the marrow out of my bones.
Finally,
I found someone
who accepts me
even if I am not different.
Finally,
I love you
and you love me too.
