Random thoughts about random things

November 11th, 2023

I'll never understand how you assume everything is fine between us. You're always still so sussy and flirty and I'm over here trying not to let it get to me. I'm still in love with you and you don't seem to realize it...... I miss us. I miss you. You hear me laugh and joke and talk in general... but you never seem to hear the undertones of sadness or bitterness... you never seem to hear the serious tones when I give you compliments and such still. You never seem to realize how much I actually care and how much it tears me apart to be so close but so far at the same time. But... I'll continue loving you. Silently. While leaving too many words unsaid because if I was to say the words my heart continues to scream... that would be the end and you'd be gone. I can't lose you. But I do still love you...