Random thoughts about random things

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June 19, 2024
I'm almost home from my trip to Houston, Texas and the Gulf of Mexico! It was so much fun even if my family sucked and there was a tropical storm that scared us a lil bit. I found sea shells and got... really really sunburnt even though it was cloudy the whole time. Last night was scary because the storm hit us while we were staying in a condo for the night and we were worried we were gonna get flooded in for the day but nope we got out fine. I've really missed my friends and my person tho... like a lot. It was also stressful tryna find time for my own personal endeavors lmao. Overall, it was a great time. I did have a nightmare last night... unrelated to the storm or anything. It was about my ex... and it's not your normal nightmare like people think. It's the internal anxiety and panic and fear I felt that classifies it as a nightmare... it's weird how memories reveal how reality was and how we really felt then keeps bubbling back up no matter how much you try to stop it when you relive them.
Oh, unrelated to that though! I'm proud of myself! I was thinking about how I'm well over a year clean of SH, actually, to be specific, I'm 547 days clean (1 year, 5 months almost 6.) Then, I realized I've gotten so much more confident. I show off my scars instead of hiding them and I show off myself in masc or fem ways depending on my mood of the day. I actually love me even tho I still suck sometimes but I'm just human sooo don't expect so much lol. That's all for nowwww....