Random thoughts about random things

Life and memories...

June 11, 2024

It's been months since I posted on this and I just have to say... life is still a rollercoaster but it feels more like those water rides where it's slower and smoother. Things are going smoother with little splashes here and there. It's nothing I can't handle anymore but stress does get to me. Working is hard and overwhelming... I don't know how to release the emotions I feel but I'll find my outlet. I've gotten a ton more positive if that's not impossible. Lol...
Yesterday I thought of someone...... it was their birthday. Someone I used to know... it's weird to think that I still care... and realizing I still have some of their things makes me feel guilty... I have them all in a box ready to send but I couldn't send it for financial reasons and now...... it's just because seeing it makes me feel bad... it was an end of a chapter for me. A step on the road to recovery and self discovery. But yet... sometimes I still want to check in and just see how they are... sometimes I'm tempted to just message but...... they'd hate me and I'd definitely hate myself because I don't need to live in the past at all. I'm happy now. I have my own plans for the future... anyways that's just my thoughts for now...