Random thoughts about random things

October

This... Is the month. THE month! All the girls falling for girls in Octoberrrr...

I DID THE CLICHE! 

I fell in love... in October. That's why... I love fall... Looking up at the stars... 

UGHHHHH! Lol... 

I fell for her last October. I met her in August. Started crushing through Sept... But then completely fell in October... We got together that November. That was the start of our story. NOW it's August again! I'm still in love. We're still together. 

I want to be with her for as long as life allows... But I don't know if she'd want the same thing. I'm starting to revert tho... to my old self that feels like I have to be okay because if I'm not okay... We won't be okay. That's probably silly to think... But yet... When I'm not okay it's a problem. I want to be okay for her and I know it's impossible to always be okay... But just maybe I can be okay for her. If I focus more on her I can put my own stuff aside for a bit. But... That'd be suppressing my own feelings and I can't do that again. 

We're starting to fall apart... And I'm working on bringing us back together. I want to remind her how much I love her and hope she'll keep on loving me. I need to do something big for us. But I don't even know where to begin lol 😂

ANYWAYS! Enough rambling. 

-Katniss Reece- 

August 6, 2023