Brown Eyes

Nothings the Same

Chapter 12
( Wednesday)
Rachels pov :
Today is the day everything goes to hell. No one understands how I feel and to tell the truth I don't even know how I feel. I walked into Ms.Pilsburys office and sat down queitly . "Hello Rachel. " She said but I was silent. We sat there for 10 minutes when she finally said , "Okay Rachel heres the deal , you may not want to talk about this but your going to have to say something and if you don't, I can clear my schedule and we can stay here all day if we have to . Your choice. " She said. I sighed and folded my arms , "Fine . " I said giving in . "But only because I have to pee . " I said. "Okay lets begin then . " She said. "Rachel what happened that made you want to leave the glee club?" She asked me . "Nothing . I just got sick of being there and no one appreciating me or my voice . " I said. "And it doesn't have to do with the fact that you and Finn broke up . " She said . "No I would never give up anything because of a boy . " I said. But the truth was Finn wasn't just a boy he was the love of my life . "Rachel I know you and you were your happiest when you and Finn were together so what changed ? " She asked . "I don't know , I thought we were happy but I guess I was wrong maybe it was because I wouldn't put out or maybe he just stopped . " I said. "stopped what ?" She asked. "Loving me , caring about me , wanting to be with me . " I said. I put my head down and wiped my tear and then she said , "Is that why you stopped coming . " She said. "No , it was because I was heart broken , and my mom when she was diagnosed with ALS the doctors said she would only last a year and then she last 2 year and she made it to 3 . I thought maybe she was going to be okay but then she got worse. " I said. "Did you take care of her ?" She asked . "Everyday. Until she died. " I said. "What happened the night she died ?" She asked me. "Can we not talk about this anymore. It's to hard. " I said. "Okay you can go . " She told me . I got up and then said , "Ms.Pilsbury. " "Yes." She asked. "Ever since my mom died nothings been the same. " I said. "I know . " She said and then I left.