Brown Eyes

Lost

Chapter 17
( 1 week later )
Rachels pov :
It's been 3 weeks since I've talked to Finn and I still don't know whst to say to him . Today is my first day back and I'm not sure what to expect . I don't know if I want to even go to class today I think I just might stay witb Ms.Pilsbury for the day. I walked into Ms.Pilsburys office and sat down. "Rachel , Hi. " She said. "I'm ready to talk. " I said. "About what dear ?" She asked. "Everything. Everything that has happened. " I said. "Okay . Where do you wanna start ?" She asked me. "When my mom got ALS . " I said. "Okay. " She said. "My mom was a pianist, she loved to play and sing. I remember her voice so clearly in my head . She's the reason I love music . One night though she was cooking when suddenly she had a spasm, she went completely numb . When she told me she had ALS my heart was shattered because I knew deep down she would die . I tried my best to keep a smile on for her but I would go to my room every night and just cried . And then Finn when he broke up with me I just broke. I started to drink a lot it took away the pain of losing him until my mom had a seizure. The doctors said she didn't have much time left to live so I took her home and that where she died. " I told her . She wiped her tears and I continued , "I tried so hard after her death to be strong for myself but I couldn't bare it. It felt like there was this big hole where my heart should be like a deep black pitt of emptiness. I feel so lost like I have no one to guide me . " I said. "What about Finn?" She asked. "He hates me . " I said. "He wouldn't if you told him everything. " She said. "He wouldn't understand. " I said. "Maybe he will but you never know unless you talk to him . " She responded. I paused for moment and then got up and said , "I gotta go see ya Wednesday. " I said and left . I walked into the auditorium to see Finn sitting there at the edge of the stage. I sat down with him and he looked at me , "How'd you know I be here?" He asked me. "Finn I know you, you always come here when theres something bothering you and so do I. " I told him. "So whats bothering you ?" He asked me. "Well I hurt my friend pretty badly and its I'm hurt . But that was no accuse because I care about him more than anything in the world . " I said. "But enough about me whats bothering you?" I asked. "The girl I care about is hurting and she says it's not my fault but I know it is. " He said. "You asked me why I stopped singing and the reason is because I lost my voice. Not physically but mentally I feel like since my mom died I just feel lost and alone . " I said. "You're never alone Rachel . You have people who love and care about you . " He said . "I know that now . " I said. "So this guy what is he to you?" He asked me. I smirked , "I'm still trying to figure that out but I can tell you one thing . Any girl would be lucky to have him . " I told him. He smiled , "Look , um I have to go to glee club do you maybe want to come with . Mr.Shue would love for you to come. " He told me. "Sure it be good to go and see everyone . " I said. "Awesome. " He said. He then got up and help me up and then we left .