OC Oneshots

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OC: Indigo
Fandom: Wings of Fire
Species: Dragon (RainWing), but in her human form

Notice: this oneshot is not part of c!Indigo's backstory. It's a possible future that she could have. The like three people reading this already know that I think but I'm saying it anyway

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June 18

I don't know how many years it's been off the top of my head. I was sixteen when I left, and I'm nineteen now, so... three? I think closer to four.

I'm going to go with four.

It's been four years since I left Minecraft. Azure is still out there somewhere, probably watching me as I write this. She always knows where I am, no matter how far I run. If she doesn't already know, she'll find me soon. I have spells to keep her from tracking me, but I don't know how long they'll last. She learns fast.

Speaking of animus magic...

I can feel myself slipping further into insanity with every enchantment. I can feel it happening again... I've forgotten who I used to be. The dragon with wit and optimism is dead now. Dead, and buried underneath layers and layers of fear, anger, and the exhaustion that comes from endlessly running.

I saw a quote somewhere - something about how if one lives in anger for long enough, it starts to feel comfortable, like old leather.

I haven't had a good night's sleep in years. Of my once-solid schedule, the first part to go was suntime. If I were to use my dragon form, my scales would be dull and either camouflaged with my environment, or green with fear.

Not that I use my hybrid or dragon form anymore. The wind beneath my wings is a faint memory, buried with who I used to be. I've adopted a permanent human form to blend in. I've cut off all that made me a dragon, not that it's helping much. Azure still knows exactly how to find me.

How long will it be? How long will she let this drag out before she inevitably decides that the chase has grown boring and finally put me out of my misery?
I've tried to do it myself several times. But I can't make myself jump, or shoot, or whatever I try. I'm terrified of what will come afterwards.

But can it really be any worse than this?
Everyone I used to know has probably forgotten me. I've started to forget them because of my magic. And I can't find anyone to confide in, Azure has made sure of that. It's just endless pain. Fear. Loneliness. Anger. Smaller problems too, the ones that come with being a human in this world. Taxes. Jobs. Not being homeless. All of those will probably disappear when she finds me, though, and then I'll head to a new world.

When was the last time I felt joy? It must have been a long time ago, because I can't remember what it's like.

It's sheer stubbornness keeping me alive right now. I don't want to give Azure the satisfaction of having me dead. But how long can I last?