Suicide

Chapter 2

It was a peaceful day in ninjago city.

Everyone was already up and was doing some usual stuff.

Except for Kai. He was laying in his bed, awake, but not wanting to get up. Drowning in his thoughts.

He had these thoughts for quite a while now, but they have been getting much worse recently.

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Kai's Pov:

After a while, I decided to get up because I didn't want the others to worry or to find out anything.

So I got up from my bed and walked to my wardrobe and grabbed my usual red ninja gi.
As I grabbed some underwear from my dresser I noticed the small black box. I stared at it for a few seconds, trying to fight back the urge, but I couldn't. So I made sure my room was locked and then grabbed the box and sat down on the floor.

I opened it and took out a razor blade. I used to keep it in the bathroom but I was scared the others might find it, so I decided to hide it in my own room.

I pressed down the blade on my left arm.

One cut.

Two cuts.

Three cuts.

Four cuts.

Then I stopped and watch the blood drip from my arm.
I put the blade back into the box.
The blood was still dripping.

You deserve the pain.

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"Kai?" Someone called out my name, from the voice I could tell that it was Nya.

"Kai? Are you in there?" She asked.

Shit. The blood still drips.

"Yeah, what do you need?" I answered.

"We've been waiting for you. Is everything alright?" Nya said.

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine" I said and rolled down my sleeve and stood up.

I unlocked the door and opened it.

"I was just getting ready" I said.

"Alright! You almost missed morning training" my sister said.

"Sorry" I said.

We walked towards the training room, where the others were already waiting.

"Kai, there you are!  'thought I had no one to spar with today!" Cole said and gave me a fist bump.

"Hah- yeah" I said.

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Cole's Pov:

Something seemed a little off about Kai.

As we got into sparring position, he wasn't his usual self.

He didn't speak much and just seemed a little bit off in general.

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I won.

I won our sparring session.

So I walked over to Kai and exchanged my hand to him, since I knocked him to the ground.

He took my hand and got up.

"You alright, buddy? You seem a lil bit off?" I said.

"I'm fine." Kai responded.

I didn't fully believe him tho.

"Alright... uh- wanna hang out a little? Since training is done now, we could chill a while?" I suggested.

"Sounds alright" Kai said.

He seemed so... emotionsless?

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No ones Pov:

Kai and Cole were playing video games in the living room.
Usually Kai freaks the hell out when he loses a game, but this time, he didn't care much. And Cole noticed that of course.

So after a few rounds, Cole paused the game.

"Why'd you pause?" Kai wondered.

"I wanted to talk to you about something" Cole said.

"Okay? So?" Kai said.

"No, Kai, this is serious." Cole said.

Kai's facial expression darkened.

"O-okay." He said.

"Alright... so, I noticed that you seemed a little off today, so, as your best friend, I worry about you... because I know you like to keep it to yourself when you are struggling or sad, I just wanted you to know that you can talk to me" Cole said.

Kai stayed quiet the whole time. After Cole was done speaking, Kai spoke.

"I appreciate that, but I'm fine." He said.

"Alright then..." Cole said, still not fully believing Kai.

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Timeskip:
10pm

Everyone was already in their room, most of them already sleeping.

But Kai was awake. He stared at those cuts he caused earlier.
Thinking about things. A lot of things.

"Cole said I could tell him everything... maybe... maybe I should?"

"No. Nobody cares about me. I deserve the pain. As long as my friends are safe I'm alright"