Kai's pov:
It was in the middle of the night. I should be sleeping, but something kept me awake.
I had these thoughts for a long time now, but I always ignored them.
I don't know why, but the thoughts started to get more intense, I couldn't ignore them anymore.
"Why do the words in my head get so violent?"
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I couldn't just keep laying there anymore. So I got up.
I decided to sneak out and go for a walk.
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I was sneaking through the hallways, hoping that everyone was asleep and that I won't wake anyone.
I made it to the door and got out, into the cold night air and the fresh breeze.
I took a deep breath, enjoying the fresh night air.
It was so quiet. It was just me.
Me and my thoughts.
I walked towards the front door and opened it, I stood in front of the long stairway.
I walked closer to the edge, staring down, we were up so high, I couldn't even see the ground.
It was tempting to jump.
What am I thinking?
I backed away and walked back inside.
I sneaked through the hallways, until I reached my room and decided to try to get some rest.
I laid down in my bed.
I couldn't stop thinking...
What if I jumped?
What if I would just jump?
Would anybody care?
What if I would just... disappear?
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Suicide
FanfictionTW: Suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, Sh/Self-harm a little lavashipping -------- Kai is struggling. He has been struggling for quite a while now. At first he had to raise his sister, Nya, when he was just five years old. He lost his friends so...
