Forever with Lord Sesshomaru *not edited*

Chapter 20

Sonya's POV

When I got there, it was quiet, too quiet. I searched our room for Sesshomaru, but he was nowhere to be found. Making my way to the bathroom, I noticed that there were candles lit all around the tub. I smiled, knowing that he had done this. Looking around once more, to see if he was around, I began undressing myself. In the mirror and I saw all the cuts and bruises the villagers left me. They were all over the place, some areas I couldn't even see the cuts.
I felt a presence behind me. It's warm breath, tickled my skin.
"Where did you get those bruises?" It's said cooly
"I fell....on my journey, I fell into a thorn bush." I lied. I was a terrible lier and we both knew it too
"Who did this?" he growled "Sonya."
"Some villagers thought I was a threat to their village so they attacked me, Im fine, it's not like it was life threatening." I said turning around,realizing that we were both undressed, I kept my eyes up at his. I felt bad, getting injured and then him seeing me like this. I didn't like it when he saw me injured, it made me feel weak. But I also felt like it made me hideous.
"Admit it, you like me more without cuts and bruises." I blurted out
"Sonya...the you that you are now, is the same you that I fell in love with and you same you I will love tomorrow. How many times must I tell you? I'll love you no matter what!" He brought tears to my eyes.
"I-I...."
"I love you." he growled in a rather husky kind of way. Picking me up, I wrapped my arms and legs around him while he wadded the both of us into the tub. I shuddered against him as his hands ventured all over my body.
"Ah,ah,ah." I pointed my finger in his face "not until we're married..." I teased. He smirked,but let out a low growl.
I thought about the child, how nice it would be to have one. But God the process would be painful. I wanted to make him happy more than anything.
"Shesshomaru..."
"Hmmm?"
"I....Ive given it a lot of thought..."
His body stirred to the side and faced me with all the intensity he could stir.
"Sonya....." he gasped
"I...I think I want to bare a child."
"No...no! I will not be the cause of your death!" He whispered, taking my hands in his
"You won't be!! I'll be right here with you."
"You don't understand I want you to be here with me always!"
"And you will....trust me...we both know you want it....unless you don't want it anymore."
He gave me a cold glare but didn't say anything. His silence scared me.
"I will not loose you, I will not allow myself to do such things to your body." he said cooly, narrowing his eyes
I didn't bother to argue, I mean I wanted to live, but I wanted to make him happy. Then again, if he doesn't want to be happy, then that's his decision. But I really thought I'd go through with this. *sigh* I thought wrong. I frowned and got out of the water, wrapping a towel around myself and walking away.
Ugh I can't believe him, I was willing to give my own life, just to make him happy. Maybe I was wrong, I don't have a clue what makes him happy anymore. Whatever, at least I'm still breathing right? Ya I guess. I should just shut up and count my blessings. And with that I climbed into bed, but failed to fall asleep.
A while later, Sesshomaru got into bed as well. He didn't say anything, but I could tell he wanted to say something. I just stared at the ceiling the whole time. I peeked over at him once, his eyes were closed, but I knew he wasn't sleeping.
Even though he didn't want a child anymore, doesn't mean I care any less of him. I'm just a little sad that's all.
I looked over at him once more before placing my hand on top of his. I didn't expect him to take my hand in his, but he did. He surprised me. I glanced back at him, and his eyes were still closed. Hoping he wouldn't care, I wrapped my arms around his chest, snuggling close to him. Soon falling asleep, I was jolted awake by Sesshomaru, he had wrapped me in a protective embrace, making me gasp. God! Must he scare me senseless like that!? sighing, I fell asleep...

----Four Days Later-----
(No she wasn't asleep for four days)

This week has been flying by rather quickly. Too quickly. Quite frankly, I'm a little nervous about the wedding. Most of Sesshomaru's family probably wouldn't be too fond of me.
I stand there on the balcony of our room, watching the sun rise. All these thoughts rushed through my head and it was becoming unbearable.
"Take deep breaths Sonya, deep breaths, you can do this." I told myself over and over.
"Are you ever going to stop your yapping?!"
"Koga! Hakaku! Ginta!"
I looked down to see Koga and his two buddies looking up at me. They were all so happy to see me. I hopped off the balcony to greet my them.
"You guys came......"
"Psh Ya! Like I was going to miss your big day...." he said rather rudely, then again, it's the thought that counts.
He was like my big brother, showing up for me like this. I gave him a huge hug to show my gratitude.
"Congratulations Miss Sonya!" Hakaku and Ginta both said
"Thanks Koga, thanks you guys." I smiled, turning to his pack. They smiled back in reply