Silence

No one but you...

Caution: Mentions of sexual assault.

Is it an assault though? Just a routine.

01- November, 2016

Phi... Where are you phi? Rain is so scared.

Yesterday morning papa brought me to this house and that person told me I would be working for his son, p'Stop. Khun said I will continue my studies from next year, after I learn to take care of his son's needs.

He is so scary phi. Rain got punished because I entered his room without his permission. He slapped me so hard phi. He made Rain kneel too.

And Rain got punished again with a belt because Rain forgot phi's drink and didn't answer when asked. p'Stop got so angry with Rain phi.

He locked me inside the bathroom. Without any lights. I begged him, told him I was getting scared, asked him to leave, but he told me it was my punishment for being a bad boy.

I just wanted to be in yours and mama's arms. You make the darkness go away. But no one was there for Rain yesterday night. So I just hugged myself lying on the floor, until I, slept? But it didn't felt like I slept phi.

Rain is so sorry phi. I tried so much to be a good boy but failed. I broke the promise I made to you. I will try not to break it again phi. Rain will be goodest of the good boy....

Rain needs to clean the house before he comes.

Love you p'Phayu...

Bubye!!

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#Phayu pov

I just completed reading 2 parts of the diary. I can't fucking believe his father would do that to him!

He was slapped, made to kneel, belted and got locked in a washroom- all in a single day.

He must have been so scared. He is so scared of dark that he gets panic attacks when alone. He is never used to sleeping alone too. He is either in my house, beside me, hugging or with his mama, lights always turned on.

And.... That happened? For my sweet boy?

Is that why he looked so scared just by the footsteps? If he was treated like that in just a day, how much more would have happened in these past 10 years?

The next morning, after the classes, I went to the cafe where Pai and Sky are waiting.

I am so happy that he agreed for Sky to help. Though, there is something alarming with the way Sky says it. He must be hiding something.

Anyway, I left the cafe and went back to find Rain with some stupidly sweet pastries and jellies. Hope he still likes them.

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#Rain pov

It's nothing new for you Rain. Just stay still and let them use you. Only then you can be free from the torture.

It's okay. You can do this. It is just p'Petch and p'Bass. It's nothing new. They are your regular customers, just trying something more. Nothing else.

p'Petch came towards me and tapped on my cheek twice.

I opened my mouth and took him inside while p'Bass kneeled behind me removing the buttons of my shirt slowly, tracing the still visible whip marks and cuts.

" Take it slow and make it wet. You don't want it to hurt when I push it inside now, do you? "

I nodded and continued, using my tongue and lubricating it as much as I could and soft whimpers left my mouth when p'Bass started sucking my nipple.