Lifes Truth Cuts Deep

Life in 2023

In the next session, I told her about what really made me upset and about me hitting and screaming all of the time. That night before I cut myself and my mom found out and she just told me that I'm probably just doing it for attention but I know that I'm doing this to forget just to forget it all. everything keeps popping up and it won't go away until I see blood I do it when I rember the bad things that had happened to me in the past recently the thing in the last six months pops up more frequently. When I think of what he did to me I just feel so dirty kind of like it was my fault he hurt me. so I take it out on myself and everyone else by the way I'm scared of men now that's not right  I mean that's just absolutely crazy. my guy friends that I had before it happened. I rarely even talk to them anymore because I'm scared of them but this one this one boy named Austin he's so rude to me like he would call me fat and all of these rude names he also will hit me and he will shove me in the hallways and many other things. I get called fat but at least this past week people have said I was pretty good mostly because of the make up I do extra credit and i work extra extremely hard because I just want to get out of school so I can become a writer and travel the world.