Letters to the Love of My Life

Someday

b,
oh how do find the words to tell you why i'm so afraid
i cannot bring my lips to say the words i want to
what if i tell you and you don't look at me the same
i just don't wanna lose you

not again i refuse to let you go like i did before
i only feel like me when i'm alone with you
i love you more than i knew i could love anyone and then i love you more
it overwhelms me the words and actions i want to take i freeze thinking of what to do

fuck i want to show you my dumb poetry because you believe in me
and because every poem i've written for a year have traces of you
i wish i could look you in the eyes and share vulnerability
i'm scared of saying it out loud because it's true

i love the way you smile when you get me to laugh at a fucked up joke
i love the way you focus when you play the guitar
i love the way i knew i wanted to hear every thought inside your head before we ever spoke
i love how open and genuine you are

i know you can't seem to fathom why i love you
but there's a million little reasons that you'll never believe
but i can say this with all i am, it's all true
i hope one day, my love, it'll be just you and me.

yours,
a