Ive fallen

Chapter 21

Leah's pov
I slowly open my eyes, feeling a sudden sharp pain in my stomach, making me whimper slightly.
I sit up slowly as the sun shines brightly through the window, indicating its morning.
I look to my left, seeing the empty bed, realising y/n wasn't in my bed anymore. A slight feeling of sadness washes over me, realising the room is empty.
I look to my right, seeing a glass of water and a painkiller sitting on the bedside table, a small piece of paper placed next to it.

'Thought you would need a painkiller when you woke up. Hope you are feeling a little better.
Ive gone for a run, be back soon
-Y/n'

I smile slightly at the small note that was wrote
'she is sweet' i think to myself before picking up the painkiller and washing it down with water

I get up and quickly change into the fresh England kit that was washed, putting my hair into a ponytail and exiting the room.
I wonder down the corridors, having a happy feeling consume me.

"Now whats got miss Williamson happy then, or should i say who" i hear from behind me. I turn to see Georgia and Keira stood behind me, smirking at me.
I raise an eyebrow at their accusations, although almost feeling as if i was caught.
"What do you mean?" I question my best friends, my eyebrow raising slightly in confusion.
"Even y/n is walking around with a stupid smile on her face" keira says, smirking towards me, obviously expecting some sort of admission?
"Really?" I question, a small smile appearing on my face as she says this.
"Yeah, she must have taken the news well then" Georgia says, smiling towards me
"What news?" I question, honestly oblivious to what she was talking about.
"You didnt tell her your part in her disappearance??" Keira says, her smile quickly being replaced with a small hint of anger.
"I- erm...no" i say, looking towards the floor, ashamed of myself.
"You better tell her soon, before i do" keira threatens, obviously being protective of her friend.

Both Keira and Georgia walk off, Georgia giving me a small smile of sympathy as she follows the other best friend

*Sigh*
'nothing is ever simple' i think to myself, knowing that i messed up. I got myself into this mess, and now i suppose i need to get myself out of it.

I look up, noticing the empty hallway leading to the canteen. 'they must have already left' i think to myself, remembering the little time i spent in my own head.
I finally made my way towards the canteen, looking over the scattered tables that were filled with players. One stood out to me though. Y/n again sitting alone, like she did last time.
I make my way over to the table, almost attempting to gain the courage to tell the girl my darkest secret.
"Hey" i mumble towards the defender as she stares down, mindlessly scrolling on her phone as the eats her food.
"Hey" she mumbles back after finishing her mouthful of food. She offers me a small smile as i sit down, only a glass of water in hand.
"Are you not eating?" She questions. I notice how her eyebrow raises on the left side of her face.
"No, dont really have an appetite" i say, honestly telling the truth. Im either super hungry or dont have an appetite at all at these times.
She offers me a sympathetic smile as she stands up, leaving me sat at the table on my own.
I deflate a little, standing up to go and sit elsewhere until y/n returns, a plate full of food in her hand.
She places it in front of me, the foods separated into separate parts on the plate.
"I didnt really know what you liked, so i got a variety of things" she mumbles, sitting down and eating her food again.
My heart flutters slightly at the kind gesture, knowing that she cared for me.
"This is amazing, thank you" i mumble, looking down at my plate, picking at the food although i did not want it, just eating out of politeness.
"You dont have to eat it all, le, just a bit, yeah?" She says, offering me yet another smile.
'why is she smiling so much today' i think to myself, remembering the conversation from earlier.
"Le?" I question, a gentle smile now resting on my face, rather enjoying the conversation i am having with the defender.
"Yeah, i mean if you dont like it i can sto-"
"No, i like it" i say, interrupting her, feeling slightly giddy when she calls me le.
She just chuckles at me, before continuing eating, making some small talk.

"Right ladies" i hear a loud voice say, interrupting my peaceful conversation with y/n. Of course its sarina.
"I'm proud of you all for your first group stage game, as you all know, our second one is against Norway. They are a tough team, i expect you all to battle today with all your hearts. We stepped off the momentum against Austria, but that will not happen today. As you are all aware, y/n is back. And i am proud to say she is on the bench after some medical check ups. Now lets kick some ass" Sarina shouts the last bit, allowing some whistling and cheering from the team.
"You have 30 minutes, please, sort yourselves out, we want to leave on time this time. Sarina says, raising an eyebrow towards rachel and millie, making them turn a bright shade of red.

Everyone if finally dismissed, making there way towards their rooms, ready for the day ahead.

"So, y/n, where are your battle scars" a voice says from behind us as we walk towards our room, ready to start the day.
We turn to see rachel and millie stood there, eager for y/n to show them a large smile plastered on their faces, almost laughing at themselves.
Y/n slowly turns around, but she isnt smiling, her face is..blank?
"No" she states, walking off in a rush, not even waiting for me
"Well done guys, real nice" i state, glaring at the two 'comedians' as i run off after y/n

I finally reach our room, opening it to see y/n furiously packing her belongings.
"Y/n" i say carefully towards the young defender, cautious of her stare of mind.
She stops packing, closing her eyes gently as she looks up at me, again another blank expression
"Are you ok?" I ask, walking slowly towards her. Thats all it took for her to break down, tears rapidly streaming from her eyes, leaving droplets on the floor.
"Im sorry" she mumbles as i wrap my arms around her, pulling her into me as i hug her, attempting to calm her down.
She nuzzles her face into my neck, obviously feeling some comfort in my actions.
As she cries into me, i feel a lump forming in my throat, making me swallow harshly as i look down at a now peaceful looking y/n. Her eyes shut as she clutches onto me, obviously having not slept well recently. Her tired looking expression and the bags under her eyes making it obvious.
And now i realise...it was all my fault.