Ive fallen

Chapter 26

*Knock* *Knock* *Knock*
I walk towards the door, confused on who could be at the door at this hour. Its almost midnight?
"A-Alexia? What are you doing here?" I question as i open the large door, seeing the older women standing on the other side of the door. Her eyes show flashes of sympathy as she sees me in the state im in.
She looks behind me, seeing the corridor lead to the kitchen. Stacks of junk food scattered across the dining table. I have dark circles around my eyes, indicating the lack of sleep i have had. My hair greasy and a mess due to having no motivation to move from the spot to shower or even brush my hair.
"Y/n, you look terrible" she mutters as her eyes scan the view in front of her.
"Thanks" i mumble back, rolling my eyes and walking away from the door, back to the pit i had made.

I hear the door close behind me as i flop back into the seat i was comfortably sitting in, closing my eyes as i huff in annoyance.
"You know, you cant just disappear for 3 days" Alexia says, as she sits down in the seat opposite me, helping herself to the open packed of chilli heatwave Doritos that are placed on the table.
"Why not, it's not like anyone cares about me. All they did was lie to me" i mutter as my eyes flutter open, looking towards my mother figure.
"You are wrong Y/n. They all care about you" Alexia says, looking directly into my eyes.
"You are wrong. If they cared, they wouldnt have lied." I say, now almost competing with her in a staring competition.
"They lied BECAUSE they care about you. I have no explanation for Leah. All i can say is, you dont know her situation. Let her explain. Let them explain. You have been through a lot, yes. However, you are being selfish." Alexia says, now staring back towards me, showing her dominance.

I look away from her, showing my defeat. I stare at the wall, processing the things she just said. 'Was i really selfish?' I think to myself.
"I mean, look at you Y/n. You obviously feel sorry for yourself. You are sat here in your own filth in someone elses home. What kind of example are you setting for yourself. What kind of example are you setting for Matteo." She continues saying. I turn my head to look at the Spanish woman as she drills her words into me, hitting the soft spot i have for Matteo.
"Fine" i mutter, not ready to admit i was wrong for what i was doing, but still wish to sort my situation. Its the least i can do, for Matteo.

I stand up, walking over to Alexia, leaning in to hug my Spanish mother.
"Ohh no you dont" Alexia says, holding her arms out and pushing me away.
"Go and shower, you smell like shit" she says, pulling a face as i got closer to her.
I just laugh in her face, now forcing my arms around her body, hugging her tight.
"You fucking asshole"

I look towards the door in front of me, my bag hanging on my shoulder with my freshly washed clothes. My hair freshly cut and my Clothes clinging tightly on my body, showing my muscles.
I knock slowly on the door, awaiting a response from my roommate.
I see the door open, a flash of blonde appearing as a gust of hot air flies out, hitting me in the face.
"Oh for fuck sakes Georgia-" Leah begins to say, before she stops in her tracks, seeing me stood there, a neutral look on my face, showing no emotion.
"Hello, Leah" i mutter, attempting not to show the anger in my voice as i see her face.
"Y/n!" She shouts, jumping on my strong figure, flinging her arms and legs around me, obviously excited.
I wrap my arms slowly around her body, supporting her as a sense of guilt fills my body. 'Was she really this upset?'
I hold onto her body as i walk inside the room with her still clinging onto me, dragging my belongings behind me.
I drop my belongings on the floor and sit down on my bed, laying down as i hold the smaller woman. 'Remember, hear her out' i think in my head as the sense of guilt starts to disappear, only to be replaced by anger.

"Listen Leah, we need to talk." I say to her as i begin removing her from my body, only for her arm to hold onto my tighter.
"Please, don't leave again" she mumbles into my neck. I feel a hot, wet tear hit my neck and roll down, signalling her sadness.
I pull out my phone, telling Lucy, Kiera and Georgia to come to my room.
Not too long after, a loud banging is heard on the door, almost sounding frantic.
"Leah, you need to get off" i say to her, only to be met with her arms becoming tighter.
"No" she says, making me sigh as i stand up, walking towards the door.

I open it slowly, seeing the 3 figures standing in front of me, all quickly rushing towards me before they stop, noticing the smaller figure wrapped around my strong body.
"Dont ask" i mumble, opening the door further to let the 3 older women in, indicating im willing to talk.

I sit down on my bed as the 3 others sit on Leah's bed. Leah still being firmly wrapped around my body, still unwilling to release herself.
"You better start talking, and you better start talking right fucking now" I almost shout, seeing the people who betrayed my trust.
'Wait, why didnt i shout at Leah?' I think to myself, confused at my own actions. I just shake off the weird feeling, staring at the 3 women, only now feeling my anger rise again, seeing their faces.
"Well, you see..."