Fight For Me

25. It Will Cost Me

G R A Y S O N

Tensions were high after Benny let out a secret that was not his to tell. Bryan has not been back, and I know I should be taking care of the asshole that did that to him. Suzy comes out glaring at her son and stands up quickly, I can see the panic setting in his eyes.

"How is he?"

She smacks the back of his head and then grabs his ear. "What the hell were you thinking Ben? Did you not think that it was his place to speak about that if and when he wanted to?" Although you can see she is fuming I can also see the concern she has for her son. "Ben." She places her delicate hands on his cheeks. "I love you son and I know you were so scared...we all were, but to throw him under the bus like that..." She shakes her head as she steps away from him. "Go make this right with him." She pulls him into a hug, and he clings onto her as I hear him sniffle. Once he releases her Benny looks at me for a brief moment before taking off.

I feel out of my element here because I have not been around anyone that cares in so long it feels foreign to me. "Now you." She turns to me and gives me a small smile as she pulls me into a hug again. I wrap my arms around her and hug her just as tight. "There's our boy." She pats my back as she steps away and takes a seat on the sofa, and I follow suit. "I was so worried when Bryan lost you." I let out a breath as that day flashes in my mind again. I was so scared for him and my brother, until I saw Frank die in front of my eyes. I thought I was dead but apparently for some fucked up reason I survived. "He was lost, so very lost. The only light I saw is when he looked at his precious girl, but even then, it was dimmed out." I look up to see her face and she pats my hand. When I think, she is going to retract her hand away she keeps it laid on top of mine. She may not be Bry's mother, but she is by far the better person than who should have loved him unconditionally.

"I love you Mike and I am so happy you are alive, I truly am." I know there is a but coming and when she sighs giving my hand a squeeze, I already know what is going to be said. "But" I knew it! "You just got your memory back. Bryan has been mourning you for almost five years. I thought when he met Mitch." I close my eyes I can still see the look in both of their eyes.

"Suzy." I squeeze her hand and give her a small smile. "I'm not the same person who I used to be. Hell, I may never get back to how I used to be." I run my fingers through my hair in frustration, but she pulls my arm away from my head. "As soon as I remembered I can still feel the love I had for him. I will do anything for that man, but there are somethings I have to do to protect them. He might not understand." She gives me a kind smile and pulls me into a hug, and I savor the feeling of a parental figure that I haven't had for so long.

"If he loves you the way I know he does, he will understand." She kisses my forehead and stands up. "Just don't get my boys killed." She winks at me as she walks off to the kitchen and I can't help but chuckle and shake my head.

I sit and wonder if I should just leave. This is a lot to deal with and not really my business. I shake the asinine thoughts from my head because Bry is my business if I want to keep him.

"He needs you." I look up to see Benny standing there awkwardly wiping his eyes. "As much as I hate to admit it, Bry needs you." George walks in scowling at us as he holds a sleeping Zoe in his arms. My God she is precious. "I'm putting Zoe in her room. Do not think of leaving before we have a chat boy." I want to roll my eyes but just keep quiet for a moment before I smirk up at him. "Yes sir." I mock and he growls at me. Benny starts coughing, hitting his chest. "You too Benny we have a lot to discuss." Benny nods his head as the grump ex-military man leaves the room.

"Come on. I will show you where Bry is." I get up and follow him up the stairs and then he stops at a door and stares at it, body rigid. "He is so pissed at me." He looks at me then sighs. I mean I get it they have a bond like no other.

"He has every right to fucking be pissed Benny boy." He glares daggers at me, but I don't give a fuck. "It was his place to tell me, if he told me when he was ready."

I do not wait for him to answer as I slowly open the door. Once the door shuts behind me, Bry's head snaps up.

"Hey." He says timidly, I walk over to him and crouch down, so I am eye level with him. I place my hands on his knees and reach forward cupping my hand on his cheek. "Did I hurt you?" He gives me a confused look but all I can think about is how rough I fucked him. He told me it's been a long time for him, and I just couldn't control myself with him.

"No, and I'm sorry."

"What the fuck do you have to be sorry for?" I jump back and that rage is coming full force once again. "That bastard is the one that did this, not you."

"But I went there to forget, to stop hurting so damn much Mike."

My phone rings but I ignore it.

"Doesn't fucking matter Bry! Even if you went to get high, he had no fucking right. I'm gonna fucking kill him!" Bryan jumps off the bed and grabs my hands to stop me from pacing. "No" He shakes his head and I get angrier because he doesn't want this guy to suffer...fuck that! "No" I snarl out as my breathing gets erratic.

"I'm not losing you Mike. I just fucking got you back."

I smash my lips to his because the tear escaping his eye was my undoing. He has been in so much pain and hurt and I just want it all to disappear.

"I'm not going anywhere." I say in-between kisses. "Good because I'm not letting you go my cat eyes." Fuck! I would do anything for this man even if I have to sell my soul to the devil himself.

"I love you, I never stopped."

He wipes a single tear that escapes my eye and I pull him into a hug. His arms wrap around me tight.

"I love you Bry."

I may not be good for him as I once was. But I know how to get revenge for him. It will cost me, but I would do it to protect him no matter what. Hopefully I don't have to protect him from myself.