Fight For Me

27. Focus

                                                              G R A Y S O N   Aka    M I K E

"You have to be faster than that."

I dodge his hit and I can tell that he is frustrated that he is not landing a single hit on me. We are running out of time, and I need him to be as prepared as possible. Sweat trickles down his body and I just want to run my tongue all over his abs. 

Focus...stay fucking focus. 

In the past four years nothing has distracted me from my goal, but since he has come back in my life everything has changed. He tries for an uppercut, but I saw it coming from a mile away and sidestep him quickly. Twisting my body, I come up behind him and place him in a choke hold. I keep my hold on him light. 

"Focus Bry." I plant my lips behind his ear and feel him shudder.

 "Kind of hard when I can feel your dick on my ass." He grunts out as I chuckle and press my body closer to his. 

"We have to meet up with Romano in two hours Bry and I need you Focused."

 I let go of my hold and move my body in front of his. My hands touch every crevice on his body. Touching him is as intoxicating as it was four years ago. Thinking of the past and thankful he is here now. I remember before I lost it all, was of him not making it out. It scared me more than anything. Being with Bryan makes me feel like my old self again, but once I'm not with him it's when the monster within remerges.  

That scares me the most. Afraid he will leave if he sees my true self, who I am now.

"I'm good as fucking dead Gray." I hate that he has to call me that, but it is for the best. If we slip up in front of Romano than we are both dead. I take hold of his head cupping my hands on his beautiful face.

 "I will fucking die first Bry. I will make sure you get out of this." I lean and kiss him because I need to, and knowing he needs this too. Reassurance. we both need it. He shakes his head and pulls my body into his and holds me tight. His whole-body shakes as I cling onto him.

"I won't survive it again Gray...I won't." 

I run my hands over his back. He may not think he will, but he can. This beautiful man almost ready to let someone else in, he just doesn't know it. Closing my eyes, I remember my conversation with George when I left his place.

"I don't trust you!" His arms crossed over his chest, and I remember him in a completely different light than from before. He's changed...well everyone has. Maybe he has always been like this but just kept it hidden. I wonder if what I have done to survive has always been within me. "I liked you kid, you know, before all of this."

"Before I became a monster."

"I didn't say that. It's just that trust is earned. You have to earn that shit back!" I know he is right, but how do I go about it?  "Listen kid, I know what you have done. Hell! We have all done shit we are not proud of. The moment I learned of all this bullshit, I dug into it. So, if you want to redeem yourself and help save Bryan." It's the only thing I want to do now. Before it was about what I want but not anymore. "You will tell me everything and I mean everything. If we can get him to slip up, he can be taken down." 

"He never slips up! Romano, never gets his hands dirty, always convinces everyone around him to do it. Hell! I've seen him convince a man to slit his own throat." I shudder at the thought. I may act tough because I have to but would gladly get the hell away from all of this for good.

Before it eventually kills me.

"He will slip up, they always do. You keep me in the loop, and I will help get you both out of this." Nodding my head because no words come out of my mouth. As I walk to the door George calls out to me.  "Mike." I look back at him and nod my head. "Bryan cannot know about this. I want to keep him and Zoe out of this as much as possible." They don't deserve this that is for sure. "They have been through so much already, no more heartache for them." Couldn't agree more. They deserve all the happiness in the world. "I truly hope it doesn't come to this, but if shit gets out of hand." George sighs and for the first time I see sympathy in his eyes. "I need you to walk away from him...away from her."