secret sister

chapter 19

I felt the wind around my ears when i felt some one grabbed me and we landed on the floor i opened my eyes and saw Alex, my best friend, and he looked me with so much concern that i was suprised

"Abi are you crazy? why would you do this?" he asked "i can't lose you, you're the only one that wants to try and help me and doesn't judge me and i mean the only that doesn't care what i do but cares for me"
i heard footsteps and everyone i know was there i started crying

"i'm so sorry Alex i really am it's just all to much" i said with my voice breaking, he just hugged me and Nathan came and sat next to him

"its fine Abi" said Nathan

"i'm sorry" i kept saying and Alex picket me up when he saw Diana looking at me with concern and nodded at him. I feel really bad but i just couldn't take it and i know why would anybody want to die when they find out that Jaime Preciado was your older brother but the blame took me back to those awfull people that i once called "mom and dad" but still i guess when you're someone like me, I snuggled up to Alex when i heard two pairs of footsteps and saw that it was Tony and Jaime

"Alex, i'm sorry but i want to cut again" i whispered and looked at him and i knew he would understand me and he looked at me

"they're going to get mad but even you need to relaps" he said and handed me the razor, i took it to my wrist and so many cuts that when he put me down on the car he got the first aid kit and started to disinfect my wounds

"what happened?" asked Tony

"Abi cut again" said Alex "and don't say anything because you guys are one of the reasons she cuts now"

"Alex!" i said and gave him the 'shut up' look and he listen, i looked at my brother and his best friend with no emotion

"why Abi?" asked Jaime

"because it was time for a relaps" said Diana from behind them "i don't like it but still its her choice"

"she shouldn't it is right and if you really are her friends you would want her to stop" said Tony

"they want that but its my life" i said

"but i thought we agred that if you want to cut you will come to me" said Tony

"i know but still i never promised anything" i said with no emotion and cloosed the ccar door, i know that they want to talk to me but all i need is sometime away and just wait it out for a day or two and i hope that they can forgive me when i want to talk.