Keeping up with... Kamryn?

Chapter 22

Kris broke the silence by saying, "Oh my gosh, Kamyrn, this must be terribly awkward for you..."

The camera crew just stood there and looked at me, and I looked at them. It was silent, and a little awkward. One of the men said, "Who is this, Kris? Did we come at a bad time?"

Kris looked at me and was lost for words, it seemed. She looked back at the crew and said, "No, it's not a bad time..."

I waited for Kris to introduce me as her daughter, but now she seems awfully hesitant...then she spoke up and said, "She is... um..." Her voice trailed off. "I'll be right back, gentlemen.."

"Come in here, Kamryn. We'll talk." Kris said as she walked into the family room beside the kitchen. I heard Kim follow behind me.

"I know this is so much to take in without being in the middle of filming the show..." Kris began.

I just stood there and looked at her. What did she want me to say? She had her chance to introduce me as her daughter and she didn't. How am I supposed to feel about that?

"Sometimes I wish the show would just....go away, but-"

"Or you wish I would go away." I blurted out without thinking. I let my head fall as I looked at Kris's shocked face and mumbled the word, "Damn..."

"Why on earth would you think that Kamryn? I am so happy that you are in my life now. I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world." Kris said.

I responded, "Well then why didn't you just tell them who I was back there?"

Kim stepped up beside Kris and said, "Look Kamryn, this is going to be harder than you think. From what Kris told me, your father was trying to protect you from fame by taking you. And he actually had a point there. So maybe it is best if this just stays in the dark for now..."

"Stays in the dark?" I asked.

"I told Kim that I thought we should keep the fact that you are a Kardashian between us for now. Only people we absolutely trust should know." Kris said.

I looked between the two of them astounded. "are you serious? I finally find out who I am and now I have to pretend to be someone I'm not?!"

"No, not at all!" Kris said emotionally. "You are family now and nothing will change that!"

Kim added, "Look at the big picture Kamryn. If you reveal that you are a Kardashian, let alone a secret Kardashain, your life will change more than it already has. You will do red carpet, fan meets, give autographs, and paparazzi will absolutely follow you everywhere you go. Is that what to want?"

Kim and Kris were both looking at me with all seriousness. "No, that's not what I want." I sighed. "I get your point."

Kris sighed. "For the time being, to the public and on the show, you will be a family friend staying with us. Are you okay with that?"

I looked down at my sandals and took a deep breath. "I mean, not really, because I just want to be me. I hate keeping secrets and hiding like I have my entire life. I thought here would finally be different...." My voice trailed off. I continued, "but that being said, I really really do not want paparazzi to stalk me, so I'm in."

Kris walked over and hugged me. "I promise one day this will all end, I am just so glad you understand."

I sighed into her hair as she hugged me. All my life I wondered what the smell of my mother's perfume would be as she hugged me. Now I finally know...

"Okay, are you ready to go back in?" Kim said with a supportive grin as she put an arm around me.

I gave her and nod and we walked back in the kitchen. The group of about 5 guys were still standing there.

"Guys, I want you to meet someone." Kris announced. All the guys looked my way. "This is Kamryn Collette, she is a family friend who will be staying with us for a while."

The crew threw up a hand and said hi as they introduced themselves.

After that was all said and done, Kris cooked lunch and the crew started getting ready to film. One of the guys told me to "just act normal" as they filmed. I just simply said, "Being filmed or not, I never act normal." I said and he laughed.

I saw kris smile my way after seeing I could actually get along with the crew.

Kris serves us lunch and we were halfway done eating when I heard one of the camera men say "And in 3..2..1...we're rolling!"

My head snapped up. I looked straight at the camera that was clearly pointed straight at me. I immediately looked down at my food and stayed like that. I heard Kris go, "Kamryn, what's wrong?"

I looked up at Kris and nodded towards the camera. She looked over her shoulder and nodded for them to not point it at me. They followed directions but nonetheless, I was being filmed for a hit reality show and it was definitely taking some getting used to.

I said, "Um, Kris...I think I am going to go upstairs and lie down for a little bit."

"Okay honey, are you not feeling well?" She asked. I wondered for a second why she called me honey...wouldn't she fear it would raise suspicions?

I said, "Im okay, just tired."

Kim added, "Oh wait! Mom, did you tell her about dinner tonight?"

"No I didn't, thank you for reminding me Kim. Kamryn, a few of us are going out for dinner tonight. Would you like to join us?"

"Sure." I nodded. "What do I wear?"

"I'll be up in a few hours to help you with that." Kim winked and couldn't help but grin.

I nodded and walked out of the kitchen. As I began to walk up the stairs and to my room, I realized there was a camera following me.

I turned around and backed up the stairs. "Uh- what are you doing?"

I saw him look confused and he held down the camera for a moment. "Filming! Keep it rolling!" He positioned the camera again.

I looked around for Kris but she wasn't there. "I am going in my room....can I have some privacy?"

I saw him huff but he didn't say anything, so I just kept walking up the stairs towards my room. As I approached my room I took my chance to get rid of the camera man and I shut the door and turned the lock.

How am I going to live the rest of my life with cameras following me?