Keeping up with... Kamryn?

Chapter 8

"You don't know?" I breathed.

Kris shook her head as she pulled at her bottom lip with her teeth. She looked devasted. She reached for a tissue across her desk and gently dabbed the tears under her perfect makeup-applied eyes. "I'm sorry... I'm so emotional. Kim just told me she is pregnant again and now.... now this."

"I knew this was a bad idea, coming here." I sighed. I looked around the room and said, "I don't belong here. I will just cause problems."

"No." Kris said as she stood up out of her chair. My eyes widened at her enthusiasmic answer. "I don't want you to leave. I made a terrible, terrible mistake 16 years ago, Kamryn. And that was letting you go. I may never forgive myself, but I am asking you to. Please."

The look in her brown eyes, identical to mine, made me believe her sincerity. "Okay. I will forgive and put this behind us on one condition."

"Anything." Kris said as she sat back down. Her passion and interest in me never faded since I have been here. I am not used to someone actually listening or paying any attention to me. It... it feels nice.

"All I want is one thing... the truth." Her head tilted confused and I explained. "I want to know how this happened, how no one knew you had me, and how you have kept this a secret my entire life."

She sighed and looked down. "Okay, I will tell you everything." She said pausing. She looked on edge. "In January of 1998, I ran into George at a local restaurant. We sat and talked, and we... rekindled a fire that was supposedly put out long ago when Robert Kardashian and I split. He was my lawyer. We really hit it off that day. We met up a few more times, and then things got serious. I found out I was pregnant with you in February. I assumed I would leave Bruce and marry George. But with Kendall and Kylie so young at home, I couldn't. George and I argued alot after that. He didn't want you in the spotlight, and I wasn't ready to admit I was having an affair while married to Bruce. The media would go wild."

"How did you hide me from everyone?" I asked.

"I wore baggy baggy clothes all the time. Everyone assumed I was just gaining weight. I bought an upper body "fat-suit" which basically makes you look fat all over without revealing just a baby bump. Everyone just thought I was eating too much cake. But I decided I wanted weight gain criticism rather and than ugly divorce over an affair, and being in the public eye didn't help this situation at all."

"So I am a... situation." I sighed, looking at Kris, my mother.

"God no. Kamryn, you are a miracle. I love you just as much as I do Kim, or Khloe, or Kendall, or any of my other children!" A tear ran down her face as she reached across her desk to grab my hand. When our hands made contact with each I got goosebumps. "Please believe me." She cried.

"I do." I said coldly as I pulled my hand away. "I just don't know why me! Why was I the one you hid??" I snapped.

"Because I was an immature, young mom with two other babies at home. I was scared. I panicked. But it wasn't just me! Your father was skeptical to put you in the eye of the public. Kim had just made a sex tape, and Khloe arrested for a DUI, and every single thing this family does ends up online or on tv. He didn't want you exposed to that. He wanted you to be normal. He wanted you to himself." She sighed.

I sat there quietly, taking it all in. I realized it wasn't just Kris's fault. Yes, she pretty much gave me away but it wasn't like she had a choice. My dad nearly took me away.

"Kamryn, you have no idea what a relief it is to see your face after 16 years." Kris said with such sincerely and emotion. "I wish you believed me. I wish I never did that aweful thing 16 years ago. I wish you knew how much I love you." She rested her face in her palms, discouraged.