Always (Sequel to "I'm Here") (Jensoo)

Her Dream

(Anne's POV)

No one tells you what it's like losing your child.

It's always grief and sadness. But no one talks about overcoming it.

In the last 3 months since the funeral, I have spent countless days crying and smiling at old photos.

I miss Lisa. I miss her a lot. She was practically my best friend. But I found out recently that she writes in her books and it's always has me laughing at the reactions she writes to the text.

And at the back of each book, I don't know when she did it, but it has the words: "I Love You Mommy!" With a heart. In each and every one of her books.

And I know she wants me to be happy. I also want to be happy at some point even though I'll always have a pull of pain in my heart. And Darren somehow always manages to make me smile.

But, yes, I need to grow. I need to stop wallowing. Lisa never liked it when I cried.

I don't need to move on. I just need to accept it and not let the misery take over my life.

I grab my keys and the pasta I made for dinner at Jisoo and Jennie's

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(Darren's POV)

Obviously, as a doctor, I'm supposed to be unbiased and honest. I can't be harsh or cruel but honesty is always the best route for sensitive topics.

But I made a mistake. In my career of about 12 years, I never got involved with a patient or their family.

But this time, I couldn't. I just couldn't.

It was like an urge in me to try everything I could to make Anne smile.

I obviously failed and she knows i did everything I could. I really did everything in my power to stop the transplant from leaving but it wasn't any use.

So over the past three months, I've spent days listening to her supporting her through the pain. I got her dinner when she was too depressed to eat. I sat on the couch and watched movies with her until she eventually fell asleep on my shoulder.

And I promised myself long ago and today that I would always be there for her. As whatever she wants but right now she just seems like she needs a friend.

I always say the wrong thing but my straightforwardness seems to catch her off guard sometimes and it makes her laugh.

If she's smiling and laughing, then I'm happy.

I grab my keys and bring the wine with me for dinner at Jisoo and Jennie's.

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(Seulgi's POV)

I'm a self destructive person. I couldn't care less about what's happening around me or to the people around me other than Anne, sometimes Irene and....it used to be Lisa too.

Before Lisa, I was never good with kids. I was always horrible and I hated them honestly. The crying and the screaming and the sleepiness that consumed Anne her first few months were horrible to hear.

But I think it was around Lisa's 3rd birthday that I was babysitting her with one of my headphones in and doing college work when she ran up to me and held onto my knees.

She smiled up at me with her blue eyes and blonde ringlets of hair. She hadn't spoken much. Just to her mom. But on that day, she said,

"Aunt Seul."

That was it. I was gone.

I don't think an aunt doted more on her niece than I did. Even if Anne is my adoptive sister, I loved Lisa more than anything.