Commitment Issues. |CENTRAL CEE.

"Just Lost."

I'd walked across the empty house, back and forth, pacing. I'd been tryna get in contact with Cench and it's been two weeks and with that i had no choice but to enter his personal space. See, when Cench goes off the radar, it's a sign he wants to be left alone, and maybe that his shit ain't together mentally, whether it's a week or two.. or a month. He always sends a text or two.. letting us know he's alive. but something was clearly off.

I don't even know, shit ain't seem right, and calling his line a lot with no response was really the reason i was here.

'The fuck is going on hmm?' A2 said as my breath hitched. "that's the shit i'm tryna figure out." as all i could try to process was assumptions.

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I'd laid across the pool chair as she swam around.
Her hair wet and glossy...her skin covered with droplets of water..her bathing suit coated. soaked. her cherry red lipstick no longer visible as her lips nude.

She began to get out of the pool as her boobs danced with every movement. I hate to admit.. but i couldn't keep my eyes off her. And i knew she loved the fact.

she locked vision with me, as she approached, touching, caressing my torso. The things i'd do to her.. for pure entertainment. She sat down on the little space which was available on my chair, and laid her body on mines. Her ass against him, he peaked up, slowly rising. My mouth shaped an 'O' as i tried to calm myself.

"Am i... doing something to you? If so, my bad love." She spoke. She knew what she was doing to me, in fact. but she loved to play dumb.

"Could i at least speak to A2 and Wadz?" I spoke in the moment, hoping for a positive response as the energy was good.

She only looked into my soul... maybe considering, still having her doubts.

"I mean...Sure. Why not?" she smiled halfway, as if smiled at her, grabbing her face.

"Now let's get back to what we never had a chance to start." the smirk of my demon grasped my face, as i slid down my shorts.

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"Girl. I'm just worrying about myself from now on. If he wanted to talk to me, we would've been talked." I sighed keeping shit P, because honestly me stressing about Oaks lack of communication wasn't making anything better. Plus now, i had a career i needed to better, and all the distractions could really leave.

"I get it, but i don't know, you can put all that shit to the side, but don't forget him." Aliza said smiling through the FaceTime call, making my past words feel too harsh.

"I'll try." I looked away as my eyes began to water. A couple blinks, and it dried. I looked at the camera smiling, knowing i couldn't keep this act up for long.

"I'm getting a little tired. I'll call you later." the saddened tone of mine i tried to hide but i knew she could still hear it.

"Okay." she spoke, clearly seeing and feeling the room.

I sighed as the call ended.
It feels like im slowly dying inside.
I know it hasn't been long...
But I feel like with each minute...
He moves on and on.

I don't know. I'm just lost.