Knight And Prince

CHAPTER 05

Nanon POV

I ran... I ran until my legs gave up on the stairs and I crumbled down crying,
I really didn't cry after my dad's death two years ago. I didn't feel this much sadness again after dad's loss..... It's this fucking feelings called love...
It's just because I have feelings just for him...
I don't know what took over me. I just wanted to make him comfortable with me but I made him uncomfortable once again.
I just thought he will have same feelings like me... but I think He doesn't have feelings like me. He may want a friend... not a  lover...
As  always people will not  have mutual feelings for each other...
I didn't know this will pain this much...
I should have never love anyone... Then I don't have to go through this pain...

I got up from the ground and quickly called to Ms. Park and informed I had to pick up Chimon suddenly. So I asked to look after Ohm as he is all alone in upstairs. I can't leave him like that alone because I know he is not well stable.   Ms.Park went there quickly and I saw after a few minutes he was coming with Ms .Park.  I felt relieved seeing he is okay. But he looks lost. As he went inside room safely I come out from my hiding spot and walked out. I don't feel like staying here anymore.

It's already started to rain heavily.
I just walked out in rain . It pouring out heavily . I'm getting all drenched up and don't know where to go. I can't go like this to Chim.  I  informed Jimmy to get him. I sat on the street bench and cried out.. I don't have nowhere to go as I'm feeling lost and this is my first time I'm heartbroken like this.... I don't want to answer questions of my friends. So I can't go to them. It's only making me over thinking than I should've  .
It's painful to think he doesn't like me... I thought we share same feelings...
After waiting there for hours I started to walk to my apartment.  I cried out in rain because no one gonna see how weak I'm now......

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Ohm POV

Two days have passed after our last encounter. Yesterday he wasn't here. Whole day he was in leave... Day before yesterday was the same. I missed him so much. I never missed anyone like this.

I waited today at least today Nanon will return so I can talk with him. I couldn't even sleep peacefully for the past two days because of what happened. I slept very well with him but I can't now.
It's hunting me. I just wanted to clear this misunderstanding. Why didn't he listen to me.... Why he just went away... Why????

That day I know he sent Ms.Park to me in time before it's raining. I know he cares about me so much. But what he is doing now from avoiding me hurts me so bad.  I never felt like this for someone till he is ghosting me here leaving me all alone. I thought because he is close to me. But nurses are close to me now too but I don't care if they come again or not... It's just him.

I really miss him now... I miss his baby smell, his cute dimples  when he is talking non stop... His every little single gestures and kindness and his presence . I missed him so badly. Now  I'm hugging his jacket to my  chest tightly because I'm terribly missing him. Sigh.....

And  his sneakers left in the corner of the room where I put.
I missed him soo badly .
These new feelings scare me off at the same time pulling me into him more and more to the point I feel like suffocating and feeling like I can't live without him. I can't spend a single day  without reminding him , seen his smile , His presence now.
If this is love let me be a prisoner in love  gladly.

Suddenly door opened and I exitedly sat up hoping it's Nanon. But it was the other doctor Nanon sent to me when he couldn't make it.

"Hi... Khun Pawat...  I think you remember me. I'm doctor Ren"