Black Ink Revenge; Andy and Juliet Love Story

The Divine Zero

I woke up in a bunk. I looked around and realized it wasn't mine, it was Andy's. I opened up the curtain and didn't see anyone. I looked down at what I was wearing and I was wearing one of his muscle shirts and sweats. Then my head started hurting and was pounding. I laid back down and groaned. I turned and faced the wall of the bunk. I heard some footsteps approaching.

"Did you guys do it?" Someone hissed.

"Go away Ashley." I murmured not wanting to be annoyed at the moment.

"Ooh, she's cranky I'm guessing it was bad sex then." Cece added. They snickered.

I sighed and closed my eyes. Then I heard other footsteps approaching.

"Leave her alone guys." Andy warned. They all went into the main part of the bus.

"You awake babe?" He asked me softly. I rolled over to see his beautiful face and shimmering eyes just staring at me. He had a bottle of water and two tablets in his hand.

"Here." He handed me the pills and the bottle of water. I took them and gulped down the water. I scooted over signaling Andy to lay next to me. He smiled and laid down next to me. He closed the curtain giving us some privacy. He put his arm around me and I snuggled into his chest. He kissed my forehead. I looked up at him and smiled softly, and then kissed his lips.

"Was I that drunk that I don't remember you driving me back and ending up here?-Oh shit, do the guys know?" I asked concerned. He calmed me.

"They know and so does Kellin, I texted them and told them what happened and how I brought you here. You fell asleep on the way here and I carried you and changed your clothes so you'd be more comfortable." He smiled softly at me and petted my hair.

"Andy, I'm so sorry for last night. After that I just feel like I-I don't deserve you, you're so sweet and amazing and you don't des-"

"Juliet, how can you say that? You are amazing and perfect just the way you are. And that's why I'm with you, I love you and don't forget that okay? Forget about yesterday. I'm just glad that you're okay and I got there in time." He stated.

"Yeah but you wouldn't have come and that wouldn't have happened if I wasn't drunk." I muttered.

"Hey." He lifted up my chin.

"Stop." He smiled and kissed my lips. I smiled back.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too Dragonfly." He smiled.

"AWEE." I opened up the curtains and there the guys were all creeping in on us and ease dropping.

I smiled at them. I got up and chased them away and closed the door behind them at the end of the array of bunks, and locked it.

"THEYRE GONNA DO IT GUYS." I heard Ashley shout. I face palmed and went back to Andy's bunk and snuck on top of him.

"Someone's feeling better?" Andy chuckled and had a wide smile across his face.

"Guess those pills helped haha." I smiled.

"Yeah, sure." He smirked. We kissed.

~ Later ~ 

I went back to my bus in Andy's clothes, showered, and changed. I didn't really cared how I looked completely after last night. I put my hair in a pony tail and put on Andy's SnapBack I took when we went to Disneyland. I wore a crop top some leggings, my converse and Andy's hat. The guys and I walked to the stage and on the way there I was asked a million questions of course. I told them and gave me apologetic looks.

When we were doing sound check I saw Kellin come by and I smiled softly at him. He also gave me an apologetic smile. Once we were done I came down the side of the stage and he came to talk to me.

"Hey, are you okay? Listen I'm really sorry about last night..it's cool if you don't or can't hang out with me anymore." He wiped his sunglasses and put them back on.

"No, Kellin that doesn't mean I don't want to not hang out with you. It wasn't your fault, it was mine for getting drunk and yeah I'm fine thanks." I reassured him.

"Okay, well I'll see you later." He hugged me. I smiled and closed my eyes in his embrace. He pulled away.

"Bye Kellin." He smiled and left.

I decided to go back to the bus by myself while the guys and everyone else had fun. I guess today just wasn't my day. I wasn't feeling right, I just felt something inside me that hurt. I got to the bus and climbed inside my bunk. I played "Mind Over Matter" by PVRIS and it related to me so much. I began to think back to my family. And that was when I remembered that today was my Mom's birthday. I just began to think about everything else that was fucked up in my life. Tears just started rolling down my cheeks and I just didn't feel okay.

I didn't do them any good. They didn't care. They tore me down. I didn't deserve that. It just always seems like I care way more about people than they care for me.

Ive been looking up to Kellin for years. I absolutely love his magic and the meaning of his music. But when I hang out with him I just feel like I'm just there to be there. And if he honestly cared about me wouldn't he see that I was drunk and cared? I just don't know anymore..

I haven't heard from Andy since I left his bus which was strange too. He's probably busy with the guys and fans and... Girls.

I searched for my little pouch which was at the very bottom of my suitcase. I found it and went into the bathroom. I opened up the pouch and took out my blade. I just felt the need to. I just felt like at the moment like everything was my fault. No one wants to talk to me, or be around me. I just thought about everything else like my mom, my "family" and just cut. I just felt so invisible. The fresh new cuts were red and angry. I cleaned them and patched them up. I put away my blade so no one would know. I put on a wristful of bracelets and climbed back into my bunk. I had a stashe of sleeping pills in the corner of my bunk and took two just hoping to fall asleep and not bother anyone.