Black Ink Revenge; Andy and Juliet Love Story

Mad

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I locked myself into the bathroom and really felt the urge to cut. I didn't know what the hell I did to deserve this. What did I ever do to Andy? And see this is where I blame myself. I shouldn't but I do. What did i do? I don't understand..

I was snapped out of my thoughts as there was a small knock on the door. It was Vic & Kellin coming to check on me. I was crying but I opened the door a peak and they came in and were comforting me. My idols were comforting me. God I love them so much. I sat down on the side of the tub as I whipped my tears away. Kellin sat on one side of me and Vic on the other.

"I don't know what Andy's problem is or why he's doing this to you. You didn't do anything okay? Do not blame this on yourself. You didn't do anything. And Andy knows that. He's being immature and a complete asshole right now. What you are feeling is valid. Andy's missing out on an amazing girl sitting right here." Vic smiled at me as he finished speaking and I hugged him.

"You guys are so sweet. I don't know what i would have done without you guys. I love you both very much. You guys are my brothers. Thank you for being there for me. And thank you for both being my heroes and my inspirations." I looked at both of them and they gave me a hug. A group hug. I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like shit. Mascara running down my cheeks, my eyeliner was fucked up. I sighed. I didn't care at the moment. I just needed this night to end. I thanked my boys and headed back to my bus. I was done with parties from now on. Too much shit happens. The guys checked if I was okay and I said I just wanted to sleep. I said goodnight to them and just went to my room. I changed back into Kellin's shirt and laid down in my bed. I needed to sleep but I just couldn't. The thoughts just were overcoming and wouldn't go away. I made a promise to Kellin and Vic I would stay strong and wouldn't harm myself. And I was going to stick to that promise. If I let them down, I would let my fans down as well. And I can't do that. It was currently 3 am and I have been laying in bed since 11 pm. I had "Mad (Reimagined)" by Emarosa playing to help me sleep. I love that song to death. And it related so well to my situation. My phone was next to me as I closed my eyes. My phone buzzed and I looked at the screen.

I was getting a call.

A call from Andy. I was so hesitant to answer it. But I didn't. I couldn't just give in like that. He left a voicemail:

"Are you awake? Please don't be asleep. I'm drunk and I need to tell you how much I care about you and how sorry I am." Are the words he sent me.

I was speechless. I wasn't just going to give into him like that. I missed hearing his voice and he sounded so upset. I wanted to call him but I couldn't. If I did I would be so easily forgiving him. And I don't want to do that anymore. I need people in my life to fight for me to be in that place. I'm so sick of people walking all over me thinking I'm going to give them more than one chance and it will be fine. I'm not going to be weak. I turned my phone on silent and slammed it down. I turned to the wall as I pulled my blanket over me. I was upset, crying but managed to sleep.

I went to sleep crying and woke up feeling like I was drowning. I felt like shit. I felt empty and numb. Which I didn't know if that was good or bad. I didn't feel the same. But I kept my promise to Kellin and Vic. I didn't harm myself. I wasn't going to let some stupid boy make me feel the need to do that to myself again.

I got up and got dressed. I wore my black PTV crop top with black leggings and I wore a flannel around my waist. I put on my combat boots and combed through my hair as I put it back and bobby pinned it. I then did my makeup. Mascara, foundation, and eye shadow. I wasn't in the mood to go all out or do anything special. I put on my fake smile and walked out into the main area of our tour bus.

I followed the guys to catering and just kept my head down. I sat with them and ate breakfast and was quiet. I was just looking forward to playing and being connected with my fans. I didn't want to deal with Andy and I just didn't want to be bothered by him or some hater calling me a slut again.

"Juliet are you okay?" Wes asked me.

"Yeah I just didn't get much sleep last night." I responded as I looked down and ate my eggs.

"Do you want me to go and get you a Monster?" He responded.

"That would be awesome, thank you." I replied as I showed him a small smile. He got up and went to buy one. My phone vibrated in my pocket. It was Andy again. I locked my phone and put it back into my pocket.

"Don't let Andy do that to you okay. You don't need him and he doesn't deserve you. We don't want to see you like this." Daniel responded.

"Thank you guys." I responded. Wes came back and handed me my Monster. I opened it and gulped down almost half of the can.

"Slow down." Max commented.

I flashed him a small smile. I got up to dump off my platter and I walked to the stage not worrying about my band being with me right now. I sat down and waited as the crowds formed waiting for us to perform. My band showed up and we got situated. We formed a group hug before walking on stage. We dismissed and I walked on stage and up to my microphone.

"This microphone is my escape." I spoke. And the crowd roared. I smiled at them. I genuinely smiled. I turned back to the guys and smiled at them too. We continued with our set. I felt so much better. Just being with my fans and doing what I loved always made me feel so important and happy.

"Thank you guys for coming out, I love you. We are "Automatic Loveletter"!" I smiled and waved before I walked off stage and down to the grass. The guys wanted to go and hang out with Sleeping With Sirens and I just wanted to be by myself on the bus and maybe just check out the venue. I headed back to the bus and surprisingly it was unlocked. Who ever left last didn't lock it that's not good. I locked it behind me and walked into my part of the bus. I turned around and locked my door.

"Juliet.." A deep and low voice said. I nearly had a heart attack or may have killed someone. I jumped back against the door. It was Andy.

"Andy!? What the hell are you do-" he came up to me and crashed his lips onto mine.

I was frozen. I was speechless. I was emotionless. I was empty. I was numb.

This was what I wanted. I wanted to be with Andy.

I was weak.

He pressed his lips against mine and his other hand was wrapped around my waist. He pinned me against the door and I was defenseless.

I gave in.

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{Listening to: Mad (Reimagined) by Emarosa 😍}