Destiny 2

9.Thyme - He hate me

Thyme

It's already three weeks from lost wallet accident. I still confuse with phi kinn attitude, but I follow his instructions to not wear a short. Ray and Mj also confuse with the situation.
Are you that happy, mj ask. I just nod and keep tidying my shirt. Phi kavin is in the city, so he will bring me for dinner tonight. I really miss him, even we keep calling each other.

How are you baby, phi kavin said and hug me tight. I look around. Phi wat can't make it, he have presentation today, phi kavin said. I felt bad, but I am also happy that phi kavin can focus on me tonight. I nod and quickly hug his arms.I felt like home, when phi kavin call me baby, not like my hazers who keep calling me Prince. At first only phi kinn, but now most of the hazer call me Prince. I dont like it. I am so happy that I can act like myself tonight. Phi kavin as always pampered me and fulfil All my request. What is this, phi kavin said and look at my injured fingers worrily. Nothing, it's just small accident I said. What accident, phi kavin ask a bit firm.
How much longer all this orientation thing, he ask me being annoyed right now. I will talk to your president, this is too much , he said angrily. Please phi, everyone go through this, this is a process to become great engineer, I said quickly. I dont want to be the first one to fail this , I said again. But this is too much phi kavin said and gently caress my scratch finger. If he know how, I get bruise and what not, I am sure he will really angry and bring me home immediately. From all of my family members, only my papa will be chill and relax if anything like this happen. He love me being normal. My daddy, papa win, dada nani and phi kavin will freak out if I even just fell from the swing, especially my daddy. Sometimes, they are just too much. Let me feed you, phi kavin suddenly decide. I look at him and rolls my eyes. I know I cant stop him if I want to keep study here. I need to make sure he dont report to my daddy. Since it weekend, I can enjoy my time with phi kavin till late night. Bye phi, I tightly hug him. I will miss you baby, phi kavin said and kiss my head before leave me.

I happily run to my dorm and suddenly stop when I see phi kinn look at me with cold eyes. Where are you going, he ask me a bit loud. I am on date with my phi, I said quickly. A date, he ask me louder. Its dinner date , with my phi. I said again. I really dont know why I need to explain to him. Can I help you phi, I ask him. I really dont know why he so angry . Clean the workshop tomorrow he said and leave me with anger. What i do wrong, I ask myself. I weakly walk to my dorm. I just ignore Ray who are excited . What happen Mj ask. I just shake my head and get into my bed. I try to not hate phi kinn, but he being unreasonable. I cant help but to hate him. I should rest tomorrow, because Monday all of new student will be camping at the seaside and receive our faculty gear. I am excited for that event because after that, we will complete our orientation.

Where are you going Ray ask me with his sleepy eyes. I just ask him to sleep back and quickly go to workshop. Its a bit far from the bus stop, so I need to hurry. Luckily, when I arrive the workshop still locked. So I wait for phi kinn and eat my bun. Its already afternoon, but i still cant see phi kinn.
After dinner time, with a heavy heart and starving, I leave the workshop.
I cant control my tears and keep crying on my way home. I choose to walk because, I don't want anyone to see me cry. I don't care of the rain. I just so sad and angry. Why he do this to me. I never be in his way. I try my best to avoid him.
With dirty shoes and wet cloth, I go to the nearest cafe and order some fried rice. I need to eat for tomorrow activity. I am so hungry. I try to act normal, but I cant help but become teary, when I see phi kinn and his friend now leasurely sit and eat at the cafe. I try to avoid and hide from phi kinn. I dont want him to be angry again.
Before I run to my dorm, I look at phi kinn one last time, and this time he look at me with wide eyes. I quickly turn around and run. What I do wrong.
I felt really tired and sad. I dont even call my parent. I am too sad. I scare that I will cry if I call my papa. After a few mouthful , I start cleaning and get jnto my bed. My body felt really tired. Maybe because of rain. I just need to sleep and rest I said. I miss my papa.

Are you okay, mike ask me when I sit beside him. I nod weakly. You look so red , zee one of my friend said. I am a bit under weather, dont worry I said. Have you take your medicine, boss ask. I nod and lean on the window. Take a rest first, mike said. I nod and close my eyes.
I felt like dying, but I try my best to complete all the task. Finally after dinner, all new student now queuing, waiting for our gear from the seniors. I make sure I am not at phi kinn line. I dont want to accept gear from him. And I also scare. After the gear ceremony , all junior and senior start mingling and having fun. I sit as far as I could from phi kinn. I try to be invisible. I know he hate me. I look how Mike, boss and zee keep drinking and teasing each other.
I felt really weak. I am heart broken, now I am sick and hate by my senior. I must be very unlucky. Then I suddenly see black.

29.12.23