My lucky Charm

01 | ill starred me

Ramya POV:

After a tiring day at work I stepped in to my house removing the slippers outside. I saw my brother sitting and watching his tv not bothered about me entering the house. 

As I made my way to my room to freshen up, I happen to overhear my parents conversing about me.

From their conversation I could clearly understand that they have met an astrologer for my marriage. 

As per my horoscope with my parents, only when I leave the house after marriage good things would happen.

Until then, there would lot of financial related problems and would even cost the life of my father , if I am not married earlier.

Its been 3 months already. Hearing the warnings from the astrologer, my parents were in full swing to make me marry  some random guy.

Even if a stranger who pass by , rings the door and offers to marry me, immediately they would push me out of the house to him.

 At times, my parents indirectly asked me to fall in love with some one so as the task could be easy for them. Unfortunately , that never happened.

 I did not get the spark in any one to fall in love and go live with them. There had been a time when I felt for the sake of moving out , I wanted to do some live in relationship and escape this home.

But the real world reality made me fear about all those and I shunned from doing that.

I even tried to go work in some other place leaving my home , stay in hostel ..etc.. but just that I am afraid to go out and live alone. 

My parents are not that cruel to send me out like that. Ok I can convince myself like that. But can't blame them though.  The reason why they have started behaving like this is because of me.

I am an unlucky person. Whatever that I do, or wherever I go my unlucky charm follows me. It gives troubles to the ones near me.

Not all times, but most of the time it had. I had tried to convince me many times to ignore those thoughts about myself. But everytime some or the other happens, proving me wrong. 

Despite of all this,  I managed to complete my degree and land in a job in IT Company.

Never ever in my life, the one that I wished or desired happened. I wanted to join a good college which was 5 stops from my house. 

My father wanted me to join a girls college which was nearby to my house. Believe me, till I complete my 12th standard, I never ever turned my head to that college to see how it is.

I always wanted to move to a college that is little far away from my place. 

Fearing of sending a girl child alone to longer distance, my parents always denied. Still I managed to convince them and made my Father buy college application form for 4 to 5 colleges. 

He took me to all the colleges in public transport. It was April time, which witnessed the peak of  scorching heat in Chennai. I managed to complete only one College and got tired as hell. 

"Paa.. why can't we go to next college tomorrow? I am already tired"

"you are tired with this one college, but you have liking towards joining in  a college that is far away from our house. How will you manage daily?. Better option join in the girls college near our home"

My ego boosted on hearing that and agreed to go to other colleges on the same day. I managed to submit the application form for all the colleges obviously including the girls college near my house. 

Its been 2 weeks. I did not get any offer acceptance letter from any college except the girls college near my house.

My parents started blaming me for wasting money on the college applications. It was all because of my less score of 91% in 12th standard. I was blamed with this saying.

My parents don't want to spend money to make me study engineering. So they have parked all those dreams to my brother.

After all he is their favourite. There has always been a partiality between me and brother.

Seeing all this I expected my parents at one point of time to tell I am an adopted one.

Or some one else child or I am found in a dust bin something of that sort to justify their partiality on me.

Pff.. Sadly I am their own daughter. Their hatred grew after experiencing my ill fate.

With no other option left, I completed my joining procedures and paid admission fees in the girls college for which I received the offer letter first.

When I returned home, the postman delivered the admission acceptance letter for the other colleges that I applied. Wrong timing.

My unlucky charm started to spread to my college life.

Within few months of me joining the college, my college Principal died due to sudden cardiac arrest.

Initially I was heartbroken thinking it was all because of me, later convinced it was all coincidental. 

Few months passed. One of  our favorite Lecturer quit the college to join another college leaving us with another strict professor.

It did not stop there, due to the new GO passed by the new Principal, the excursion was forbidden starting from our batch. 

 The department HOD was changed. No more department cultural fest was announced starting from our batch.

My inferiority complex about me started to develop even more thinking about silly things. One day I happened to give the book which one of my classmate dropped accidentally on the floor.

That evening I came to know that she had a break up with her long time boyfriend.

I thought it was all because of me. I don't know whom to blame. Is it because of my luck or coincidental I am not sure.  

Days passed. Though there were times when things were normal , it did not give me satisfaction that it was all because of me. I refrain most of the times in performing anything important. 

Over the time I realized , I can't do  anything. I just need to accept the fact about it.

Completing my 3 years in the college, on the final year, I was able to get myself placed in campus interview to a big MNC. 

I don't know how this good thing happened to me out of all the bad luck. But I am not in a position to boast about it .

That is another tried and tested myth for me. Every time I think something good has happened to me it will get snatched away soon.

Its been 4 years since I started working in that company. I have been changed to around 4 to 5 projects. Atleast 2 of them are a flop.

The project suffered major drawbacks. No matter how much ever we struggle to give our best in bringing in to a shape, the team members and Managers were not able to figure it out.

I smiled inwardly. Throw me out of the project, see how skyrocketing profit your project earns.

While I was thinking all the deeds my unlucky charm has brought in, my mother called me to inform about my marriage proposal who is coming to meet me.

Hopefully, my haplessness  stops after marriage.