My lucky Charm

03 | Another round

                                                              ~~~~~Ramya~~~~~

"On their way to the mandapam, their van met with an accident. Naveen's parents and few relatives were mildly injured and are admitted in hospital.

Yesterday too, his Father slipped on the bathroom and fell it seems" Dad informed us with a shaking voice.

My heart started beating faster. I know this is all hard to accept and too much to expect for. Still I had slight hope that Naveen would be in support of me.

"Come let's go and meet them.. which hospital they are admitted in ?" my mother asked with a concerned voice.

"They don't even want us to come and meet them. Moreover they wanted to cancel this wedding"

"apppaa...Naveen " came my shaking voice.

"its Naveen who informed this. He did not want to proceed"

Hearing it my heart was shattered in to pieces. I immediately dialed Naveen's number. He did not pick up. I tried calling multiple times but he was keep on rejecting my call.

Later he sent a message stating, he does not want to proceed with this marriage taking in to account what all has happened till now. 

I tried to ping him, but the message did not get delivered. He blocked me. Everything happened in a blink of an eye.

I thought everything good will happen once I marry. But getting married is like trying to catch a bull horn for me.

Its been 4 days since all this has happened. Naveen's family recovered with minor accident and was brought back home.

They dialed my Father and agreed to give  back the dress and jewels they have got for me. His parents even agreed to pay back the amount we spent for marriage hall and caterers. 

Initially I thought it was their generous act. But alas I was wrong. They just don't want to have any of my things there with them as they considered it purely unlucky.

Agreeing to give money for the hall and caterers ,may be because of my parents fight with them.

So, here  I am sitting thinking what to do next? what sort of change my ill fate is going to bring. Yes, my mom informed me few minutes ago, that a guy is coming to see me. 

They are so desperate to marry me off. They have not even considered my feeling of how I would be ready to proceed with next guy after my wedding is stopped. 

The day when my marriage was stopped, I did not even have any one to console me when all this happened. My mom was crying heavily.

My father was worried. My brother did not have any words to explain and was distressed.

It was my mom who then started sniffing, ranting about what happened. At least my mom is feeling sad for me , is what I thought initially. But I was proven wrong. 

"I don't know what sin did I make to give birth to such and unlucky girl." she sniffed and continued with crying. 

"we have spent so much money which has all gone waste. "

seriously, Naveen's parents agreed to pay the money back for hall and caterers due to the fight my father brought up with them. And here still my mom is accusing me of the loss.

So no one cares for me?? All they care about is the money they lost. My unluckiness.

Not about how I would feel? About the betrayal I am facing right now. At this point of time too, people wanted to blame me for unluckiness. 

I understand my family had faced a major loss with this wedding preparations, still I feel like my heart is the one which has suffered a huge loss and require convincing. 

I am fed up with all this. How much ever I try to convince myself and blame others for accusing me of unluckiness, that is the truth. I am the ill -fated one in this house.

Considering what all my parents had done so far despite of my unluckiness, I am obliged to behave and do whatever they say.

Setting the fear far away, with the thought of "come what may let me face it" I decided to leave the house and stay in hostel.

Its been  totally a week since my wedding is cancelled. For the first 2 days, my colleagues started asking me about what and why it all happened.

Some of them felt pity for me, some of them back talked about my unluckiness. Hearing it all, I just felt I am becoming more pathetic and unwanted girl in the whole world.

It is Friday evening. Everyone are busy and happy getting ready to enjoy the weekend.

Me with full of frustration and hopeless strode towards my home. I went to my room and freshened up as there is no one to greet me and say nice words.

Though I feel not happy and interested to enter this home I came in . My mother informed me about the next guy who is coming  to see me tomorrow. Angry at first on hearing that, later I pondered over it.

I concluded it is  ok to proceed with that and leave the house as a married girl than living alone in hostel.

But my major worry is, will he be ok with proceeding or will he leave me dejected and alone as the earlier guy? Is he even aware of my situation now?

I did not even want to see his photo nor look at any of his details. I don't want to raise any hopes on this guy too and face another rejection.

How much ever I say that, some corner of my heart wanted to marry a guy who is understanding and does not consider me unlucky. 

Most importantly someone who would not betray me or reject me. I don't even have the courage and stamina to face another rejection right now.

So I decided to convince the guy whoever comes to see me to marry me immediately. 

Even if it is meant for contract marriage or fake marriage agreement, I am ok with it. I know I am sounding too cliche when it comes to contract marriage.

Blame it on the K-dramas and wattpad stories that I picked to watch/read.

I just wanted to get out of this house so that my parents and brother can lead a happy life. There is a selfishness hidden there.

I wanted to be away from this unlucky and burden words. I  may  not be that worried when my unluckiness continues with others, because they are not very close or blood related to me.

The night went on without any dreams or sweet expectations nor nervousness of how the guy would be.

Instead my mind was fully occupied with how to handle the situation tomorrow and convince him to marry me.