I got to school really early today just too see her , I don't think she noticed but ever since I saw her I kinda liked her but I'm not going to think about that too much. I hurried off to my first class, trying to focus on my studies instead but all I thought about was if she wanted to see me again it's crazy because I haven't thought about any one like this in awhile and I was determined to ask for her number today so maybe we can talk today our encounter last time was awkward because she didn't say anything and I thought maybe it was me but she was probably nervous " but it was a test today so I really wished I studied as I'm sitting in class I'm zoning out thinking about her but she carries this journal every day with her " I wonder what she writes in there maybe I'll ask her after class what's a boy to do? Every time I see her, my mind becomes consumed with thoughts of her should I go ahead and make the first move, ask her about the journal, and find out what she writes, she has the most prettiest smile you'll ever see she has, brown hair , brown eyes and she wears these pearl earrings that I always see in the morning, she's so sweet I can tell by looking at her but I know that I can't have herbecause she's a sweet girl , and breaking her heart would ruin me I had so many bad experiences in the past with relationships, and I don't want to hurt her like I've been hurt before , I know that if I ever got a chance to be with her , I would want to cherish her and make her feel like the most special person in the world and she deserves that and so much more , I gave my teacher my test and before I got up to leave she approached me saying " can we redo what happened last time ?". My heart raced as I heard her words, unsure of what she meant by "redo what happened last time, i responded with "yes that would make me very happy ," I replied with a smile. We made plans to meet after class and I could feel the excitement building within me
I felt so relieved when she came to me with a genuine smile on her face. It was clear that she was just as eager to spend time together as I was I didn't want to come off as desperate , so I tried to play it cool and maintain an air of confidence but really I was nervous inside I was *intained* with my emotions and that what girls hated about me and I never understood why, but with her it's different . With her, I felt more comfortable being vulnerable and expressing myself fully I didn't know her that long but I felt like I knew her all my life as every day passes by , I couldn't help but grow more attached to her. She seemed to hold a key to unlocking a happiness I had been searching for and I was not going to mess things up with her , so I decided to take a leap of faith and express my feelings to her
she was someone I felt like if I told her anything she wouldn't judge me or use it against me . But at the same time, I couldn't help but wonder if expressing my feelings would jeopardize our friendship , I second guessed myself for a moment " realizing if I send this message to her it could ruin everything I took a deep breath and reminded myself that bravery often reaps rewards so I sent I said " hey I really like you and I don't know if this would ruin our friendship so I'm unsure if I should say this but I love everything about you, you're brown eyes your brown hair your smile the nervous looks you give me and , I have liked you since I first saw you , so I reread that hoping she wouldn't block me after I sent it with confidence hoping this wouldn't ruin anything.
as I sat there waiting for her response, I grabbed my book that I had wrote in about her and everything she done or did I remembered every little detail down from the first time she gave me a pencil, suddenly I got a notification and it was from her my heart dropped " I was shaking I tried to read it but my finger wouldn't let me touch the phone at the moment, I grabbed the phone and I slowly clicked the message and the response was something I wasn't expecting
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RomanceOlivia grew up in a small town house with her parents dahlia and *gavin* she has two older sisters emma and mia they were never really supportive of her like her best friend was, phoebe she knew how to make her day better by just coming and seeing h...