What's a girl to do

Chapter 13: Jace Pov

I don't know about this , i mean we tried this once before it didn't work I know she's excited but I don't want to break her heart how do I do this " I mean we just got a chance to try again " deep breathes maybe if I let her down easy it would be better not to harsh not to bad " just very easy she's a sweet girl and she doesn't deserve a guy like me plus we're two different people I don't know why I said yes I feel like I reeled her in , just to tell her this was a mistake she's going to be so upset okay I'll just text her and tell her " we need to talk hopefully she responds I know she's probably busy she has a lot of work on a daily basis so I feel really bad dumping this on her right now but I don't have a choice I want to be honest with her that's at least I can do

so I texted her" hey we need to talk if you're not busy or anything I know this is sudden but there's things I need to get off my chest so meet me at the coffee shop today at 3. so I sent that and she hasn't seen it yet but I'm going to the coffee shop to meet her " because there are things I want to say I really wanted this to work but I feel like I'm leading her on and that's the last thing I want to do I've known her my whole life and not once did I ever think we would get together I knew she liked me but it was so different then now we're older I don't see her in that way god I wish I didn't have to tell her now " but I rather tell her before I do something stupid she deserves the world but the world doesn't deserve her " and that's why I'm letting her go because if it was meant to be things would of happened sooner I love her so much " and I can't hold her back from anyone else who might love her the right way it's only a matter of time before she finds the right person who loves her more then I can " I got in my car and drove to the coffee shop where we always get our afternoon ice coffee's

she finally texted me " I'm not busy and I'm on the way I just got to get dressed and wear something nice is it bad what you got to tell me ? I'm already having a bad day . I shook my head in despair her day is already worse now i gotta add more upsetting news , she's getting dressed I'm going to order her favorite drink I know she's gonna need it especially after this " I'm not feeling confident right now this is going to be rough I'm waiting on her ' this coffee is surprisingly very good today , ok she's here O,M,G she's so beautiful, she had her hair straightened heels on pretty green dress gold earrings " how can I break her heart maybe I need to rethink this I mean what's the harm in being with her she does all this for me , and I came in causal clothes what thing I admire about her is how even when we're having a date no matter where she always dresses up I got up and pulled out her chair for her she gave me a big smile " and kissed me on the cheek I told her I got her favorite drink she said thank you " so what did you want to talk about is it bad I couldn't speak i froze I didn't want to do this

Jace " well it's not bad but it's not good either there's no easy way to say this
Olivia " okay so what is it wait you're not breaking up with me are you
Jace " yes I am I just don't think this is gonna work out I didn't want to tell you this but I had no other choice

oh no she ran out in tears what did I do I feel so bad after she came here looking so beautiful gosh I was embarrassed everyone was looking at me " this is horrible she probably never wants to speak to me again after this I think even our friendship might be ruined I went outside she was already gone she didn't even touch her coffee why " why did I do this " god jace do you ever think I put my head down on the table i regretted this so much ' I know she's crying I didn't want her to cry I'm going to go to her house and apologize