Day 22
Jace is the love I cling to for every second we spend together it's like every time he comes to me I feel alive more alive then I ever felt but broken at the same time Ezra talks about me like the boys talk about the girls in books with the sweet compliments and how much I smell like cinnamon how can you ever choose it's not hard but it's hard to let one go because if I love one I lose one I wish my sister was here to help me she's now 10 weeks and the baby should be here soon so excited to see them I finally got a chance to sit down and actually think about what I'm going to do about them I mean Ezra likes me and jace broke my heart twice
so I'm kind of in the middle of pros and cons but I shouldn't have to make a list god " why is this so hard for me today is the first day I been outside again I been so wrapped in Jace and Ezra that I haven't spent no time for myself at all I barely did any school work and I'm always on top of my work but I been too distracted I went to the store to buy a whole cart of self care products for my face it's time I focus on myself instead of Jace and Ezra all the time that's probably why I'm so aggravated trying to fix my relationships with them trying to figure out what we are " I shouldn't have to ask one minute it's clear next minute it's not I actually love Jace but friends might be best for us and I might tell him I know he broke my heart but maybe it was for a good reason " that I don't need to know it's more surprises to come for us and I hope one day he will see that this will work out and doesn't break my heart again
on the other hand Ezra might be my true love I want to see it I want to see how this goes " I know he won't leave me like Jace did but it might be to late to find out now I think when I came on to him at that time it may have ruined our chance gosh" this is complicated I feel like a teenager in love but I'm not " I'm stupid I love a guy who broke my heart in a coffee shop and had me running out in heels which really hurted when I was driving home I had blisters " I was crying so much my mascara ran down my face can you imagine seeing that while passing my car" that's embarrassing but that's just only the 10 ten embarrassing moments of my life I'm glad it's over I might not go back to that coffee shop either after that " I mean everyone was staring even the waitress what's a girl to do but wish she could do all this over again and make it right
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RomanceOlivia grew up in a small town house with her parents dahlia and *gavin* she has two older sisters emma and mia they were never really supportive of her like her best friend was, phoebe she knew how to make her day better by just coming and seeing h...
