Accepting Love [Taekook]- On hold-

Predebut (2011) - Part 4

Jungkook POV

After the vocal lesson is finished, I leave the room when I see a boy sitting on the wall opposite the music room door..
-Kim Taehyung, our seventh member, as I've known for about half an hour..-

Before I can wonder what he's doing here, he jumps up and storms towards me.. 'Wow, that was fantastic, your voice is amazing! How long have you been here? Have you had singing lessons before?' He beams at me as he walks next to me. Although 'walking' doesn't do it justice, as he basically jumps with energy next to me.. 'By the way, I'm Kim Taehyung, I moved in here yesterday. What's your name?' He beams at me and looks expectant when I mumble my name to him. 'Wow, how cool, we're in the same band!!!' He lunges towards me and throws his arms around me for a hug. Startled, I instinctively take a step back and my breath hitches.
Taehyung seems to notice my defensive reaction immediately as he instinctively lets go of me and mumbles an apology. 'Sorry, I'm a bit hasty sometimes... Hopefully I didn't scare you too much?'
“It's fine” I just give him as short answer. In fact, I really appreciate that he not only recognized my personal boundaries but also respected them.
While he seems to be calming down a bit, he asks me if I'm on the way to dinner too, to which I say yes and my stomach growls on command. His already beaming smile gets even bigger when he nudges me briefly and says 'Great, then let's go together, I'm starving!! You can show me the way, this building is a labyrinth!'
I have no choice but to shyly return his smile as we set off together to fill our demanding stomachs.
At dinner, I find out that Taehyung is sharing the room with me and Jimin, which explains the things I saw in the room before my singing lesson.
During the meal, I remain silent, as I almost always do, as I watch Taehyung connect with the others.
He talks freely and entertainingly about how his audition went and answers various questions from the other members. He and Yoongi discover that they are from the same city, while he notes that he and Jin have a shared passion for PC gaming. In a very short time I learn, through his communication skills,  things about the other members that I haven't found out on my own in the last three weeks. Taehyung's energie seems to catch the other members in an instant.
At some point, when we're almost done with dinner, Jimin says goodbye to go to his parents for the upcoming wedding the next day. He stops next to my chair on the way out 'Will you be ok? If anything should happen, you can text me..' Jimin is always a little worried about me because I haven't integrated fully into the group yet, even though I've been here longer than him. Unfortunately, since he is my roommate, I couldn't hide all the crying I have done. I give him an assuring nod as he rubs my shoulder on the way out.
I catch a glimpse of Taehyung watching us and his expression seems to be worried. The others didn't notice the short exchange between Jimin and me.. I bury my gaze in the rest of my food as I wait for everyone to finish...
Shortly afterwards we are cleaning up together and doing the remaining household chores. Hoseok suggests that we all spend the evening in the living room together to talk and watch a movie. Our weekends together usually go like this because we as a band are supposed to build a relationship with each other so that we can interact as naturally as possible later on stage.

Yoongi picks a horror movie that no one has any objections to. A while into the film, I notice my attention wandering around. I think about home and realize again, how much I miss my parents and my brother. I miss my mother's hugs and my father's words of encouragement. Both always manage to cheer me up in a very short time as soon as I feel down. My chest tightens and I feel a burn in my heart as my eyes begin to water. 'Don't cry, don't cry, please don't cry...' In my head I repeat the mantra that has been taking up most of my thoughts lately. I try to blink away the tears, which doesn't work as well as I would like to, as I notice a tear running down my cheek. To distract myself, I let my gaze wander around the room. Yoongi and Hoseok are sitting on the small couch next to my armchair, both with their legs on the couch and looking relaxed at the TV. The other couch across from me is occupied by Jin and Namjoon. While Namjoon is typing on his phone and not paying attention to the movie, Jin looks like he's fallen asleep several times in the last few minutes. Finally, my gaze lands on Taehyung, who is sitting on the floor in front of the couch next to me, his head leaning against Hoseok’s knee, which is sticking out over the couch. He seems to notice my look, or he has already watched me before, because he turns his head and forms a silent  'Are you ok?' with his mouth. He himself doesn't look like he's feeling very comfortable with the movie playing, as his eyes seem to avoid the TV. I give him a quick nod and wipe the tear away with my sleeve. Taehyung moves a little closer on the floor next to my armchair and takes my hand. He squeezes it briefly, but doesn't let go and continues to hold it while he gives me a quick wink of encouragement and then leans his head against the armrest of the chair. His hand feels warm and his skin is soft. A strange comfort comes from the hand holding mine and I notice how my thoughts are calming down...
Surprisingly, even to myself, I don't mind the Hand-Holding for the rest of the movie...