Accepting Love [Taekook]- On hold-

Predebut (2011) - Part 5

Taehyung's POV

Thank god that horrendous movie is over! I sigh relieved as I get up from my place on the floor... Luckily, Jungkook didn't seem to mind, that I was holding his hand during the movie for emotional support. He even looked like he needed some consolation himself. Not sure, if I was seeing tears in his eyes but he surely didn't pay any attention to the TV.
'Who ist down for some drinks??' Hoseok shouts all off a sudden enthusiastically while jumping to the kitchen.
'I don't think that's a good idea, we should get to bed now, so that we are all energetic for some dance practice tomorrow' argues Namjoon decisively.
'Oh come on, don't be a spoilsport!' Hoseok sighs disappointedly 'It's the weekend and we should enjoy the little free time we have!'
But Namjoon emphasizes again 'No, we should all be energetic and practice tomorrow. Now that we're complete, we should show Taehyung what he's been missing so far'
'Jimin isn't there anyway, so we're not complete,' Hoseok tries to persuade the young leader one last time.
'Jimin is up to date and can catch up easily, if necessary. There's no drinking today," After a short pause he adds with a wink "maybe we can postpone it until tomorrow, depending on how well the training goes.But we should not forget our Young ones' his gaze turns to me and Jungkook 'Your alcohol consumption is, of course, restricted'
I sigh, secretly relieved. It's not that I despise alcohol in general, I just can't tolerate it very well. And since I'm the new guy here, I should pull myself together anyway until I can get a better picture of what everyone else is like.

Our group disperses to their respective rooms. I'm following Jungkook to our shared room. On the way there, I try to start a conversation, but his answers remain somewhat monosyllabic. I'm not sure if he's generally negative or just tired or shy. He seems a bit depressed, which I already noticed earlier.
Once in our room, eachof us deals with their own stuff and follows his own evening/- (skincare) routine. Every now and then we exchange short snippets of conversation, usually when I have a question, which he answers patiently. I briefly consider whether I should ask him to play a multiplayer game on our phones, but decide against it because I'm slowly starting to feel tired.
When everyone is in their bed, we chat briefly. 'How come you ended up here?' I ask him 'I mean, I heard your voice and I'm still deeply impressed, but you're still very young - younger than me!' I hear him take a quick deep breath before his answer comes, 'It's my dream, it always has been and I'm willing to do almost anything for it.' He seems to think for a moment before asking the question 'How did it go for you?' 'Coincidence, to be honest... actually I was just accompanying a friend and hey presto, now I'm here!' 'Coincidence.. hmm... Do you even want it? You could have also refused..' His question sounds a bit provocative, his voice more worried. 'Yes, I want it.. I usually keep my goals fairly realistic. I just never considered that a music career could be realistic. I don't like chasing dreams that I can't achieve...' I share about myself.
'In any case, you must have impressed them incredibly.. Normally only 6 members were planned, as far as I was told.. The fact that they are changing  plans to add you, must mean that you are incredibly good' Jungkook sounds thoughtful and, if I'm not mistaken, impressed.
I giggle briefly and then answer jokingly 'Or it's just because I'm impressively handsome!'
Jungkook giggles and then states 'Jin is already our visual, so there must be other reasons'
It occurs to me that I've never heard Jungkook talk so long in one go. The darkness and the lack of eye contact with other persons seems to give him security.

I can no longer suppress a hearty yawn
'I think I need to sleep. Somehow the new impressions really drain. It can't hurt to follow Namjoon's training tomorrow full of energy... by the way, is he always so strict?' Jungkook giggles again and defends him 'He's incredibly talented and extremely cool! He has everything under control and takes care of everything!'
'Well, then I don't want to disappoint our leader tomorrow! Goodnight, sleep tight, Jungkook'
'Good night, you too!'
I roll over and shortly after I sleep safe and sound ...

In the middle of the night, or so I think, I wake up from a noise. Still half asleep, I can't figure out where the noise is coming from or what it is. I listen as my senses slowly sharpen... Are those sobs? I listen more closely to try to identify the sound as I check the time on my phone... 6:34 am... I hear Jungkook moving in the bed above me and the sound is more muffled afterwards... So it's really sobs! Jungkook is crying! I listen for a moment, then carefully and quietly get up from my bed.
If I'm already awake, then I can use the time!
I stand on the side of our bunk bed and glance through the bars into the top bunk. Jungkook is lying with his back to me, from what I can tell in the darkness, his face seemingly buried in the pillow and the blanket over his head.
'Hey!' I whisper 'Are you ok?'
Either he didn't hear me or he was trying to ignore me. 'Hey,' I repeat, 'Are you okay?' This time I reach my arm over the bars and gently shake him on, what I assume, is his shoulder! He moves and turns around. His big eyes stare at me full of tears, I can see this even in the dark -cute-
Sobbing, he whispers 'I-I'm sorry for w-waking you up.. P-please just g-go back to sleep'.
'The sun will rise in 20 minutes. I haven't been to the roof terrace yet. Would you like to come with me and show me the way?' I offer him. The way he apologized, he seems ashamed of his crying, so I don't want to make the situation any more uncomfortable for him...
Jungkook looks at me incomprehensibly 'W-What?' another sob...
'I want to see the sunrise, but I don't know the best way to get to the roof terrace.. Come with me!' I whisper.
There is still incomprehension in Jungkook's eyes, but his sobs stop. He wipes away his tears with his sleeves and prepares to get up.
'Yay!' I jump happily as I look for my slippers in the dark. Jungkook hops off his bed and also searches his own. The October nights are still very warm, so I just put on a thin sweater over my pajamas.

20 minutes later we stand together on the roof and watch in silence as the sun slowly rises.

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