what is love * Four X Reader X Eric

i won

Wake up , train , kill , sleep repeat that how it's been ever since I was 7

I could never say I had a good childhood, but there was a part in my life where I was happy when I would play with my brother in the garden.

We were twins, although we looked very different as he had platinum blond hair and blue eyes like both my parents
as for me, I had jet black wavy hair with bright Hazel eyes. However, my mom told me that I looked like my grandfather and that he had the same features, so it never really bothered me .

My family we were very poor we lived in a small old house in erudite but I was happy when I would go to sleep and my mom would read me and my brother a bedtime story and kiss our foreheads every night .

As for my dad, he always favoured my brother he hardly ever spoke to me, and when he did, his voice was filled with hatred but I didn't know why so I never once stopped trying to win his love and approval.

But his hatred started showing even more after my grandmother died he broke down, and he started drinking and doing drugs, and whenever he got too drunk or high, he would take out his anger on me he would hit me until he got bored it didn't matter if I was crying screaming bleeding he never stopped.

However, he never once touched my brother. I guess even in his drunken state, he liked my brother more .

But it became worse when my mom got a new job. It was weird
one minute we couldn't even afford breakfast and the second we were moving to a big mansion I was young I didn't know what was happening but I could tell that my dad didnt like mom's new job but he didn't care anyway

And with time, mom started spending less time at home. Sometimes, she would go 5 days without showing up she changed, and she got colder . She stopped reading bedtime stories for us, and she started dressing more smartly.

And then one day my mom got  back from work and my brother and I could hear her and my father fighting about something we heard shouting and glass breaking and more shouting and then she barged into the room grabbed both my brother and I draged us to the car saying that this is to help us and make us stronger I remember not understanding what was happing but I was scared as I have never seen my mom like that before .

Once we were in the car we drove for about an hour and stopped in front of a huge building And then she dragged us out of the car into the building as she told us that this would be our new home as we entered the building was filed with gaurdes and then we reached to cells as my mother locked me and my brother In them.
and that was the last time I remember being somewhat happy.

11 YEARS LATER

today was my aptitude test, and I was washing the blood off me from my victims that I had just heartlessly killed that I didn't even know their names
I was simply following orders

Just then my mom otherwise known as Jennin Mathew's the leader here in erudite entered my cell and told me to get ready and wear something appropriate that wasn't covered in blood because we were leaving in 10 mintus for the test .

Time passed. I was now sitting in the cold metal chair in the test room as the lady who was doing my test introduced herself as tori in a nervous tone as I guess she was intimated
and that was a reaction I was used to getting from people.

Then she handed me a blue liquid as I smelled it suspiciously she looked at me confused and then assured me that it was safe as i just death stared her inorder for her her to shut up as this was normal behaviour for me I was always on edge thats how I've been trained not to trust anyone.
Soon enough, I swallowed the liquid quickly and started drifting to sleep