Journaling is stupid.
It's for sissies. I'm not a sissy.
But Ragatha said I should journal my thoughts, so here I am.
I don't even know how to start.
This is so dumb. I'm not doing this.
...
You know what really gets on my nerves?
Caine.
So much pointless adventures. So unoriginal. I can't even remember the last time we did something other than hide and seek.
I'm surprised I haven't abstracted due to sheer boredom.
And don't even get me started on the food. Always the same feast.
I guess I should talk about something other than my own problems.
Ragatha got stressed out. Again. I hate how she makes their problems hers. How she just soaks up all their worries and troubles like a sponge. It's bad enough that I've been needing to constantly comfort her. But something else happened.
She was talking about the comforting. About "coupley stuff". About how "only couples do that". I know better than to get my hopes up, though. She probably thought it was just weird.
But it's odd.
She's a bad liar.
So I should've known if she did think it was weird.
So why didn't I?
I really don't know.
I think Ragatha's having another nightmare.
I'm just gonna leave this here.
Jax tossed the book to the side and went into Ragatha's room. It was as he suspected; she was having a nightmare. He got on top of her, hovered over her for a moment, then applied his full body weight gently on to her. This night he finally has some success, as her breathing slowed and she became less tense. This was just his job, after all.
He stayed with her until she woke up.
"Uh.. Jax? What're you doing here?"
"You were having a nightmare, dolly. I'm surprised you don't remember."
"..O-Oh, right."
Jax got up, and leaned on her doorframe.
"So, you gonna get some breakfast or what, doll face?"
"Quit calling me doll face."
Ragatha said, smiling. They both walked to the table together.
-A few hours later-
"I didn't think you'd wear out so early."
"..Me neither."
Jax laid on Ragatha. Again. Ragatha had gotten exhausted even before dinner.
"Did you go to the lake with Pomni like I said?"
"No, not yet."
"You're gonna have to go sometime dolly."
"I've been meaning to, it's just I worry someone will have a problem while I'm away and-"
"And that's the problem. You worry too much about the struggles of others, that you disregard your own health. I really don't like it, Raggs."
